Cut My Hair!

I let a friend cut my hair for experience !!!
it's ... very japanese now HAHAHA
I loook like a japanese high school girl!!!
But it's all cute and fine :)) *altho it did took almost 3 hours for her
to finish with my hair*
Thanks Yumi!

Remember Quartet Cards?

A good friend just reminded me of a card game named quartet, actually it
has also popped into my head a few times this week, I don't know why.
It's a cute card system where you must collect 'family card' that
consists of 4 cards that would be distributed randomly to the players.

It's a creative way to play cards and the design is usually interesting.
I remembered that I had a set of card, and one of them was the 'Dewi'
family card. So in the family group there's Dewi Malam, Dewi Hutan, and
another two which I cannot recall. The pictures are interesting .. hmm
remembering the cards make me want to make my own card set. If only I
have the money and enough Photoshop skills .. lol

Happy..

Happy and black and blue
Why?
I don't know..
just happy..

Falling down the stars

Stairs.. to be exact.

Hahaha I fell down the stairs in a stupid way..
sliding and can't stop myself.. lucky I saved my glass from peril. in
the end I got just a few bruises and a 5 inch skin scrap.
nothing much except that a certain panda was behind me and laughing
saying I fell down in a funny doink doink sequence.. err..

On another note I noticed that people deffinitely work or performed
better when a certain standard or target is set. When a person is given
a standard / target to go over to, they actually believed somewhere in
their mind that it would be possible to do it or that someone else had
done it. I've seen it numerous times, especially in Fear Factor the Tv
Show. The first person is at a disadvantage, because he/she/they don't
know what would be the normal time to do a challenge so they can only do
their 'best'. But when the second person goes, he/she (apart from
already watching how the first person does his act) knows that he/she
has to break that time limit no matter what to get the prize, and
besides the first person had proved that he can do it in such a
time.When you know someone before did it, it became something human to
do. Even if the person who did it was very strong, or that you have only
1% chance of winning.

I've also seen it in my workplace, when I set something to be done in 4
days, it was done. But of course put a time limit that's feasible if we
work efficiently. Not a time limit that's feasible if we work 12 hours a
day.

Stupid Oil of Olay

So the other day Oil of Olay held a program offering to exchange old
moisturisers with their new product Total Effects+.
So mom and I went to the mall at 9.45 AM, before the shops have openned,
and we head to the stall once the doors were openned.

When we got there apparently there's already around 60 people (God knows
from where since the door has just openned). I counted around 60 people
then out of nowhere annoying people come and cut the line, friends from
those in front of us. It's pretty annoying but I thoguht it'd get only
to 70 people or so, but by the time the stall openned at 11.40 (yes it's
a 2 hours wait!) so many people had cut the line.

And guess what, Mom and I didn't get it coz we were the 101st person
from a 100 quota... bummer.

Bad marketing system.. They claimed that they're not responsible for the
line cuts and all.. and I agree, but if I got there at 11.45 and cut the
line in front of their eyes, would they let me ?

It's all probably a lie. Maybe there are some of their own people too in
the line. Cutting the quota short.

Oil Price rockets....

So the government decided to raise the price.. again..
Can't they find any other solution besides making the poor poorer and
the rich richer?

If the problem lies in too many vehicles going around then why do they
give each Representative a lux car?
And all the marketing program involves giving cars away?

Why not instead take all the illegal money from the corruptors instead?
Heck Indonesia's rich enough to let outsiders take its oil for cheap

We're happy!!! Are we?

... office is back!!!
We're happy!!! Are we?

Well first, i'm having a bit of headache + flu symptoms. Not only me, Dad's also having coughs.

Secondly, I had hopes that the office would have a positive atmosphere after all that rest but instead it's still the same thick atmosphere (maybe there are too many people working in the same floor).

Thirdly, There seems to be a number of people leaving the office. It's getting lonelier and if they haven't got the replacement yet that means more work for everyone left.

so everyday I have to drag myself from the bed, everyday thinking whether I can take the day off or not...

Are we still happy, friends?

Self-pity

Does this ever happen to you?

Sometimes I say to myself..
People don't have to like each other..
we can hate each other it doesn't matter
we have our own principles..
or.. I don't care they don't know the real me..

But the more I think about it, the more I realize
They're just an excuse of my fear of being disliked by someone.

Why can't I just say, I hate being disliked, I feel lonely.

As a matter of fact, I just did..

Scary..

I'm scared..
trapped in this illuminosity..
What's going on?
Save us..


I discovered something that made me even more disturbed, such that I cannot write it here... perhaps someday I can retell.

I have learnt something yesterday as I listened to a conversation in front of me. It is that..
When we push our principles, when we chase those others, when we fought and won... we will be the last standing person, and that must've felt lonely.

What does it mean? It means that sometimes we cannot fight for what we believe in, because we are human and we need more than just a correct principle. It is best to hold back, swallow a little bit of pride or indignancies and smile..
Our life might be a lot happier and less lonelier that way.

Idling..

Look what I've done in my 'holiday'! I finally managed to finish what i started almost a year ago. Isn't it cute!!!!!?!? Too bad the picture's a bit blurry and the lighting's all wrong.

Building such a cute thing made me proud of myself.. and gave me some of my confidence that I can finish the things I set to finish after all. It's all in our minds

Tomorrow's my mom's birthday.. and I hope we'll have a lovely time. No nags, no complaints.. just peace.. I'm looking for peace a lot these days.

Maybe it's because of this unfinished office businesses? I'm like a chicken without a head, I don't know what to do.. and everyday I felt like I had made a mistake, that I should have done so much more, guilt, fear, and regret.. of what? I'm not even sure.

How to report user?

I was pleasently surprised a few minutes ago when I saw a comment on my blog.
But then it apparently seemed to be a SPAM comment. Now I'm trying to find out how to report the Blogger user. Can't seem to find any clue on the Help section though. Anyone?

Another silly problem today is that I keep on misplacing my mom's birthday card. Actually it's supposed to be a dad to mom birthday card. I misplaced itself a year ago just near the birth Date, and it has misplaced itself again this year. What's wrong with being my mom's birthday card anyway?

Well well..

Working from home does have its pros and cons.

My Pros:
- I could wake up at 10.00 AM like I did today
- I could do whatever I want in the mean time when I don't have anything to do
- I can wear anything I like

My Cons:
- Internet connection on dial up is very .. very.. bad.
- There's no one to talk to!
- Team Coordination seemed to be reduce 80%.

So I spent my idling time to wrap my mom's presents (which I'm not very good at). I am planning to give her a handbag that she can use to go to the office. So I have to twist the bag this way and that to reduce the paper wrapper space it's taken. I hope the bag won't be ruined by Wednesday...

aftermath..

Then yesterday, all the crews have to wait a few hours to no avail. Waiting for our good boss to explain the situation. Unfortunately, he didn't come in physical (altho he was only about 2 km away) but submitted a message via one of the seniors. What? After those hours waiting without nothing to do?

Anyway from now until who knows when I'm gonna work from home whatever I could until further notice.

I slept till 10.30 AM today, felt marvelous! Haven't bathed and just brushed my hair coz someone from waterworks came.

I'm looking forward to change my blog layout but I'm still waiting for some scans I need.

People are just so...

confusing.

Sometimes we think that an old friend was ready to keep in touch again and instead we're faced with this enermous wall that we didn't know exists!

I'm bummed. But I can't do anything about it because I don't want to sound as if I can't let people go. but still..

You make me uneasy, do you know that? Like Rukia in Bleach when Gin suggested to save her... In one sentence you make my world fall apart by giving me a silent blink of hope and then you take it away again.

It's 00.14 guess what..

My detained colleagues are out from the police q. But
my bos isn't. I must commend him for his resilience
and persistence in handling the case in one day. The
head police (of that particular district) seems to be
missing or refusing to come to the office. I expect
he's taking a sudden labor/pregnancy leave haha. When
anything goes wrong we should always believe that the
country, and its people will stand by for the truth
and lawful (how lawful and truthful are we actually?).

Anyway I wonder how much loss do we suffer when we
close down the office for 1 day?

A competitor has even heard and sympathized me in
Yahoo!Messenger today. He said that they're also
preparing themselves just in case the police came to
their office too. What solidarity! I'm impressed haha.

But i'm sure that they're laughing at us from behind,
somewhere.

Certainly beyond ordinary

Well today certainly goes beyond ordinary.
Our office got closed today by the police. Why? Because of licensing, not software, but polyphonics. That's how dangerous music is.

I was just getting back from lunch. We just went into the office and saw strange people around and I thought we have strange looking guests today. We got upstairs and saw more people, and one with a uniform. Then they asked for our ID, all 29 of us. Maybe my crime records won't be so clean after this?

Things got pretty hectic especially since none of the management seemed to available until almost 3 PM. The office boy freaked out, maybe he had a bad history with the police or something? But one of the guys managed to calm him down.
When we got out the office was closed with a yellow line as if some murder happened there and the neighbor offices were looking out behind the windows. We look like a bunch of underground kids maybe running a secret operation to ruin the government.

I'm lucky I didn't get to be brought to the police quarters coz 'til now they're still there waiting for some official police to set them free. But they weren't being rude at.. that's a good thing. I bought them some drinks, I think the police wanted some too but I didn't have enough, sorry sirs.

But this makes me feel a bit useless, for apart from getting some documents to my boss I didn't really contribute anything in managing the situation.

All's well that ends well. Tomorrow we're coming to work again, hopefully with the servers ready or else I'll have nothing to do. Why don't we all take the day off?


Now I still have to do my homework, which I suck at. Let's hope tomorrow will be a better day.


PS: There's something extraordinary besides that, which is, an old friend called. It's nice to hear his voice once again :) I'm pretty happy about that. All clouds have silver linings..

Buying Book Online and stuff

I just tried to buy books online, for my uni work of course. I wanna see if it really works and they won’t run away with my money. If you’re searching for Indonesian Books and stuff do try to go to http://www.bearbookstore.com I think they need the money. They give 10% discount and a referral program that I don’t care to join. Anyway if they suck I’ll remove the link J

 

There’s a cute site if you’re looking for something to do in your spare time which is http://www.maggiemarket.com . It’s in Chinese but it’s not that difficult to look for the game since it’s right there on top.

 

I’m again using the email feature of blogger.com and it’s convenient if you can’t browse around like me in the office.

 

Remind me to..

Delete this post.

I’m testing the Sending Postings by Email feature.

Cool.

 

Tragic Incidents, Continuation

Continuing from the previous post about tragical incidents, in truth, I am scared.

I'm not too scared to admit that I'm scared, though.
When I hear news like this one, I tend to imagine how it happened, what it felt like for her, how life at that particular moment seemed.

To me, it's surreal. And when we realize that this is some normal citizens, with no strange behaviours or nothing to provoke these incidents. I feel insecure, do you?

And I can't imagine if it had happened to someone in my family, what would I do, what should I do? This makes me unbearably sad for the family. This is not something normal, this is worse than a car accident, or some other. This was murder, intent. There was no telling how frightened she was, how lonely, how she saw death.

This is going to stay and haunt her parents everyday throughout their lives, especially if the killer wasn't caught. Hey it's haunting me right now!

Yes, I too, am tainted with this person's deed. I know I'll forget it in time, those who heard about the news all will, but the family won't.

Why does this matters to me now, you ask, I don't even know her.
This matters because she matters...

Tragic Incidents

Sometimes I think I am a hypocrite, and that most of us are.
Recently there was a university student girl from Binus who was raped and then killed in her rent room somewhere in Jakarta and everyone was talking about it, how poor she was, how sad, how cruel the killer was (for I heard her neck was almost completely cut off). Anyway I know it's horrible and I felt very disturbed whenever I think about this.

But in a sense I noticed a long time ago, and now too, that we try to rationalize these things to accept reality while it's quite impossible to do. And then we feel guilty and we somehow try to identify our relationship with her and we try to find all sorts of reasons to pity her more. For example, that she is currently in her last semester, almost graduating. That she is so beautiful (in my opinion), etc etc that makes this even more tragical.

What I noticed so clearly is that usually even the family of the deceased or victim (in interviews) would say things like this (not in this event, but in others) , "He/She was my youngest,he/she was always clinging to me." Or even the opposite, "He/She was always so independent.. ". And then we'd feel 'what a shame'.

In short, we create reasons to grieve. Why do we need these reasons? Do we feel guilty to grieve without them?

it doesn't make sense when u think about it, so what if she was the youngest, even if she wasn't the youngest wouldn't we all be as sad as well? What's the difference between almost graduating and just graduated, or just enrolled? We'd still be sad, we'd still grieve, we'd still mourn.

Maybe we just love gossip, it's something to talk about. But I must admit that I too, at times agree and create these kinds of reasons in these situations.

And I wondered, whether I'm creating this reason (and this post) just to feel bad / sad about myself?

Actually today was extremely tiring, but it helps to republish an old blog every now and then doesn't it? When nobody cares it's good to know that you always have yourself...


Can we help being the person that we are?
or should we always wear that impeccable facade that we are truly not
all kings must be powerful , strong and wise,
all queens must be elegant
they made so much sacrifice
for us that could not understand who they really are..

Please understand.. who I am..

Republishing Babablue-Blues

While hearing X-Japan, I'm reannouncing the past, not renouncing. Yes it's all coming back to me.
A lovely box with a soft purple ribbon on it,
Where all the shadows that haunts
will be kept
and celebrated
each and every second

You may be surprised
but it wasn't you at all
when these times came by
only the past make me whole
only the past understood
only in the past i can dwell
swimming in the dark

not the tragic past
not also the confusing past
that sweet innocent past
where there was nothing else
not even you

so it wasn't you at all
although i was laughing
and they think me insane
a hypocrite by the name

but i can't help it
if it wasn't you at all
right now
right then
until when?

I have no candles to blow
no song to sing
no falling stars
but i did smile

Somehow the tears flow by
and the window stayed dry
the thoughts afar
i wished i was as wise as you are

hearing old voices
seeing old faces
making me smaller
I'm fading why

it doesn't matter
if i laugh or cry
i only wished
your fragrance was there

Testing. I wonder if My blog works now :(

Does blogger works? does it? does it?

As you may guess, yes I've been playing instead of making my project. Why? because the project sucks big time.

I got stuck with every error, the people I ask don't have any solution, the people at java.sun.com don't answer my topic in the forum. And each error solved gives another problem *AAAAAA* why did I choose jsp .. *sigh*

You know you played too much Harvest moon when:

1. You brush your dog everyday at least 15 times a day and talk to it
2. You give flowers to every male and female that you meet.
3. You make spaboiled eggs
4. You fish for garbage.
5. You sleep at 5.50 and wake up at 6.00
6. You dream cows

consumption of McDonald's French Fries can cause cancer/tumor ?? That's the 'in' thing now among the guys in the college. My friends have been known to prefer McD"s fries compared to any other, but read this article anyway http://www.charlotte.com/mld/charlotte/news/local/3128245.htm
And any boiled and baked/fried Rich carbohydrate food. What are you saying, now we can't even eat proper baked stuff ?!?! DO you mean.. I can't eat CAKE?!
OH NO!

Anyway.. I shall go and sulk ..
While trying to manage why my jswdk keep giving me "Problem Creating Admin Registry"

I'm getting mushier by the minute. I re-watched Kamisama, Mou sukoshi dake and it's still as sad :( I like some of the logic in it but dad doesn't seem to agree. There's this Korean drama in the tv endless love, and it's also enermously sad everytime I watch it. *sniffles* I don't remember me being this fragile when I was a kid, what's wrong with me now..
Obviously I realize it's just a movie, etc, but it's still sad.

Sometimes when I watch a movie I wonder why does this movie have soooooooo manyyyy crying scene. I mean does it have to be that dramatic.. then I thought well if I'm in that big of trouble I guess I could cry too. But I still prefer non shouting scene. I mean if you have to fight with someone you don't really have to scream on top of your lungs everytime, do you?

There's a replica of Itazurana Kiss here, called Ciuman Pertama. Sux! What happen with all the creative brain existing now? What happened with all the script writers? And I just know it will turn out really weird if you've watched the real version and can't help comparing.

It's time to re-blog. There's so many things that I did and didn't do that I kind of forgot which one to write.
I went to the dentist, since the dentist was busy I was relocated to another dentist who deffinitely gain my favour.
No, it's a she! She just look as if she really knows what she's doing and tells me all the things she does and what's happening with me teeth. I got a couple of small cavities but the old dentist seemed reluctant to patch it up cuz she's busy thingking of her "nasi liwet" so she said.. I don't think it's important at all to patch it, either way it's jsut a little one.. *what m i supposed to do , force her to make a most probably lousy job to my teeth? so I just nodded happily and got relieved pretty fast from the room.

Had a haircut.. looks like matsu takako. the bangs are giving me a bit of trouble, and I didn't know what to do with them as opposed to looking at so many similar hair cuts on the movies. Then again I don't have a hairdresser running at me everytime someone says "CUT!"

Do you believe in fortune telling? Palmistry, etc all those stuff. I am not sure whether to believe in them or not. A friend of mine got fortune telled and it seems that it's not that nice though it's not that bad either. So if we follow what the fortune tellers advices us, would we be putting ourselves in someone else's hands or into our own?

dreams: inspiring murder, party, pool, school, dormitory, ..
A particularly interesting dream was about a commercial.. making one actually.

The product is i think some kind of handphone / sms service. The idea was making a short movie... where there I also become one of the actresses *ahem* hehe. i m supposed to have these two girlfriends and there are three guys.. somehow with conflicts or something else I didn't remember all of us got married.. *not to each other I mean three marriages* .. then somewhere in the movie then one of us will ask but where should we contact to get the arrangements done (I dont' remember too clearly), then there's a cellphone shoot with one of us typing the number. Then the movie continues and so on. So the real commercial is sort of disguised, natural. It may sound cheesy to you but it was nice in my dream at least.

Days full of games. Blissful!
Downloaded Pizza Tycoon, Princess Maker 2, Secret of Mana 1 and 2, Live a Live, 7 Cities of Gold. My life is gonna be busy. :P
I wanted to download Quest for Glory 3 since it brings back good memories of the game, but it's 7 megs... which is actually less than PM2 but finally I downloaded the latter.

Smurfie's stuck with his stories... actually glued to the screen instead of football ... WOW!

OOAD is hard, GDSS is hard. What else is going to be hard.
Friend is getting married, wow.. it seems such a short time since he's been a lousy flirter to the opposite sex. Anyway, people do change and do get seriously serious.
All the best and cheers to him.

I lost my silly exam docket which was fortunately re-printable. I watched the game while writing GDSS and all the rest of the gang down.
I still can't memorise some of the explanations needed. Sniff.

I finished Mists of Avalon. Tragic, but nonetheless beautiful.
The priestess of Avalon may not be as beautiful but I hope the difference may not be so large.
We shall see :)

"he worships the ground she walks on" .. where did that phrase first come from? or she worships the ground he walks on?
I have grown to like the phrase. Though I know not why, only some encounters on books have I met the phrases.

One exam has passed, it was not easy as the question trends change. I hope not to meet the same fate with the rest two.
I have never understood DSS before, even as we went through the questions over and over again it remains alien to me.
But now as I try to memorise them, slowly some understanding came, but not much I'm afraid, and I can only hope that I can understand enough by the time Sunday comes.

Senegal France 1 0 .. as if the rest of the world did not know this.
LOL. Sunday exam. Now internet. Live for today, yeah!!!!
I dreamt of Kudinar, again. But I forgot what the dream was about.
Only now can I recall that I dreamt of him. Is something wrong with him? somewhere? out there?
I surely hope not.

Watched Monday.
Crazy Funny Japanese Movie. Go figure.
About time I start revision.
When revision starts, everything else but time stops. Sniff!
Started reading Priestess of Avalon. Still in the middle of Mists of Avalon but I'm always ready for new books.

Watched Star Wars II. Attack of the Clones.
Well. where are the clones actually?
Nice aircrafts!

The college is full of footballitis people. Baloons everywhere now for the virtual FIFA thingy. It's a game, I suppose?
I'm too ignorant to notice.

I'm reading Mists of Avalon.
Good for practice not to mind things so much. I'm trying not to delve my feelings to the book so much. It's a lot about religion. Good for those who have good faith!

Performed.
Almost fell down cuz I jumped too high.
Besides that everything was ok.
Very hot.
Very sweaty.
The silly MRC people lost my library card.
i'm enjoying free full access to any computer though now.
So I don't want to really complain.
HA HA HA

The waiting was much so much longer than the practice.
But it turned out better than I had expected.
Sleepy eyes and full stomach, what else can a girl want?

Passed up the assignments.
Saturday is dancing day again.
Para para. this time without the Macarena part, but instead I fly around clapping hands.
How crappy it is? just imagine.
Ayumi Hamasak's I am.. is haunting me.
AAAAAAAAA get me off it!!!

Watched Spiderman. Well..spiderman! What else do you expect? Lol
Two more days,two more assignments to go. GO BABA!

Someone just said Baba the witch. Cool, so now I"m a witch ?!

Dreamt about Para Para Sakura. We were dancing again with a lot more people. The instructor now is a girl who danced perfectly (or so supposedly). I kept missing my time count and I danced horribly.
Anyway, it was just a dream.

The anticipation was not mine alone, it seems.
But the knowledge that there are others who anticipated the same with me, is not such a beautiful fact.

A few days ago I dreamt about riding a cartwheel or something that's similar, with Starky and Smurf. We were going towards a bridge, and somehow there is a fog (probably) and I can't see a thing in front of me, or even beside me. So there I was alone riding the cartwheel and everyone else just dissapeared. Somehow the cartwheel brought me to some place and my phone started ringing. Starky called, it seemed that she's been at her house forever and she was telling me some things I can't remember now. The phone rang again while Starky was still online and Smurf called. He also reached home way before, saying like, I've been home since 6 o'clock or something. So the question remains who was I riding with all this time?

I started getting confused about my phone, both were talking at the same time and none can hear my voice, so I wanted to disconnect the line and pressed and pressed the red button. But their voice kept reaching me, they kept talking....

Kowai. Jibun de kizutsuita, ikiru tame ni.
Minna ushinatta toki ha namida mo iran, sono tame ni de, ima kizutsuketeita.
Sore de ore no jinsei da.

Watched Kenshin again. Always left me stunned afterwards. Sacrifices, struggles, honor, left me in bitter sadness.

Blogger's nuts it refused to post my last post. But anyway I'm rewriting it again for the second time.

Happy. Verrry happy.
Nightmares doesn't matter anymore. I don't even remember the dreams. I think I'm where I want to be.
I haven't been online much, and I'm enjoying it. I'm tired at nights and fell down asleep instantly, it's great compared to the almost-insomnia nights.

I handed in the proposal. He said, "What? I'm your supervisor!?" Then I was "Yeah, who else?"
He reluctantly signed under the word "SUPERVISOR". I pity him.

Flying with umbrella to Ipoh in a storm wind. I held three umbrella, let go of two, and held on fast to one, which is my kero keroppi umbrella! YAY!
Then I saw two teachers and a professor sitting down discussing a new mathematical/physic formula!?!?!?!?
Before I knew it, my parents were watching Pokemon on TV?

Long walks are revelations.
Two more days to proposal deadline. I'm stuffed. I'm lazy. I'm in a cyber cafe.
We don't have much time. I have to keep focusing on what's now instead of being insecure of what's going to come next.
I keep forgetting, but I am trying.
It's pathetic that I got sad again on and off when I think of 'time'.

New Problem: I can't stand being away too long.
Everything turns quiet and silent.
I'm not playing because I don't like to play. I always end up losing.
So why doesn't anyone believe that?
As much as it hurts I'm trying to cover it up with my hyperactivity.

Still isn't quite well yet, but somewhere there.
Anyone who knew my daily activity since a few days ago would have thought that there is no way to recover soon.
Pretty-Not is gone.
She went at 5.30 AM and I didn't wake up to see her off.
We knew that we shouldn't get attached to anyone because here we are in impermanent state.
It's either build a wall, or just blew the wall and get on with life as each person goes.
I found that the choice are not much of a choice after all.

PS: Don't forget to smile today. It does so much good in shooing the negative sparks away.

Nauseatic.
Raining.
Dozing again.
Sleeping becomes a hard task. I'm no longer enjoying the luxury.

I posted up the two poems. You can see them in the 'write' page or just click here .
The topmost two are those.

Give me the ability to trust myself again. I need this, I think.

I watched The Kid on VCD yesterday while I keep dozing on and off. It was funny. Bruce Willis sure did the 'look' and the 'smile' well.
Preethi-Not liked the kid, but I wished there were more climax towards the end.

I'm wishing for a sleep although I know I've been sleeping too much, so now I'm gonna be smarter than myself and refuse to sleep.

Now I'm sort of down with a flu and a sore voice but other than that I'm still kicking. Starky's also down with a fever, whoa what happen to everyone in the country?!

Sleep was dozing in and off and I couldn't concentrate on the dream. *hehe* If there was any.

Preethi-Not is going away :( on Friday. I should get her a farewell present, but I have no idea what. She's going to US, and nobody knows when we'll see each other again.

Today's going to be a mess, nobody says anything that makes total sense. My roommate talks and humms to herself, I have strange messages coming and now I'm blur. Blur and blogging.

Too much dejavus make life bitter again. I have to watch what I say to people before they start misunderstanding again.

Wow, I miss library. It's been quite a time since I came here :P.
After all the training for Para Para the performance was OK I guess? I didn't make any mistake that I can remember, I don't know about the others. My two housemates started asking me to teach them the dance, and somehow gave up everytime in the middle.
It's easier to learn directly with the song rather than make it slow at first since people seemed to get surprised with the speed although it wasn't really that fast after all when you get used to it.
I saw my fave lecturer with his wife and son :(, what a seriously happy family. Duh. They look like one of those in the movies, the dad holding the son lovingly while the wife feeds it or whatever. The son looked smart, I'm sure he will be. He's gonna be a hit with the ladies somehow I'm sure.
Mr. Johnny danced with Lulu, she dances great by the way. I tried my hand and obviously can't get as good as her but I got a Neopon for that!

I could sing till my throat croaks
I could dance till my feet creaks
or I could just sit and watch you
I made two pieces of poems but they're not up yet because I haven't put them up yet *duh*. One's called "Worlds ....." and the other is "Is You"
Life has been bearable and sweet. I always wished for the sweeter, but now I'd be satisfied with things as they are.

I had three dreams, all three of the same person. Papa Smurf.
In the first, I was sick, or had to get a check, and he accompanied me. Somehow he got himself a number, and it was before me. He went and laid himself on the hospital bed and they pierced this big needle on his arm and they took out a litre of his blood. It was a very big container. I saw him cringe and I cringed as well. Then suddenly it was my turn, they did the same thing to me, and I had expected it to hurt a lot, but in fact it didn't and the blood flew freely and I fainted. I woke up feeling aghast.

In the second, I was in a college probably, and somehow got this knowledge that I'm going to U.S very soon, Papa Smurf accompanied me, brought me to the airport faster before I can think. Then after all the hustle and bustle of the unfamiliar airport I found out I had no luggage, except of what in my pocket and on me. I called mom and she said she'd send the baggage asap but turned out it was too late, the plane was going to leave. I got myself a seat beside a transvestites, and then I recognized Papa Smurf on my other side. I talked with him and the plane moves, it flew but somehow it went through another city, a some sort of hidden airport, with lots of strange buildings. There are buildings painted with large cactuses on the front, there are buildings that has diagonally moving elevator, there are weirder buildings. Then the transvestite it seems, that sat beside me started telling us about the buildings, that those were made by him, and it's a breakthrough of architecture.But they still lose of the building that a U.S company has made, the next building will beat that. I have no idea what the US building's so special about but it was large, red, has lots of towers connecting each other, but I acknowledged that it was after all, beautiful.

Then I started to concentrate back on Papa Smurf, and I was surprised that he was there after all?? He was supposed to stay not accompany me straight to US. Then I somehow thought that the plane wasn't directly going to US, but stopping somewhere else?? I got confused... and finally... woke up.

In the third dream, I was just simply in a very boring classroom and I picked up the phone and messaged him, saying that i'm going to get out of this classroom, wondering whether he would have a meal. The reply never came, and I woke up.

I watched Big Shot's Funeral. I thought it was one of those silly comedy chinese? Not to say that they're silly, but they act silly to make the comedy, but this one's funny without the actors losing their seriousness. That's something rare in chinese movies. :)
Thank you papa smurf.

Slept too early in the morning at about 4.30 AM and so did not get any chance to dream a lot of things, or remember anything about it either. But I sure was reluctant to wake up, plus it turned out the due date was postponed! So much for all the work spent last night. Housemates watched Bandits in my room, and I seek refuge on my housemate's laptop, trying to force myself to open and at the same time aligning dozens of stubborn rectangles to show up properly, which turned out to be a total waste since when I moved it to my PC, it rebels on me. Note to self: Pay roommate for the print ink, and re-do the state diagram.

There were a debut of new rap singers around the area, and they came to my doorstep. We opened the door to see the manager, introducing the 3 rap singers, who look as if they're from the college. They said this is promotion, so they're coming door to door, singing so that we'll give them support when they actuall make the formal debut. So they started singing. The song was ok, the dance lame, the voice was.. well, it's rap, what can you say?
Then after they're gone, my roommate came back in panic mode, saying that somehow she has to go back to her home asap and she asked me to pack up her stuff for her. I asked how long is she going to be away, and what should I put in the bag, she said some items including lotion? toothbrush, etc. I can remember the lotion clearly because I openned her closet and there were so many lotions I didn't know which one to pack! between all the confusion, I got an sms from papa smurf saying I better wake up now. I was going to reply to him that I already woke up when I heard a distant voice of my roommate calling me. She wanted to borrow my handphone. Anything before that was a dream.

Mole's apartment got robbed, i'm not sure about the details and she hasn't given me any news as of yet, but when we were in the class she got a call from her sister and the sister said someone broke into the apartment. Big shock to her and she wrapped up quickly and ran back home. I haven't know anything since. Unfortunately her fiance went to Japan a few days ago maybe? So Nun notified another friend of ours which is not from the class to go and take care of her.

I dreamt I went with Nun and Pit to see Pit's mom in a hospital.
We were waiting, the rest of Pit's family was there, with the uncle or something. So I was sitting on the floor on the carpet, we were all passing time by chatting or watching a TV set up on the waiting room. I accidentally bumped to this very little girl so I quickly hugged her and said I'm Sorry. I turned around and saw her mom sitting near by with two other little girls, they were all wearing cute white dresses and they have a little carpet of their own, blue bear shaped with white buttons. So this girl whom I hugged somehow clung to me, she wanted me to read her a fairytale from a book, and I politely refused since I'm not there exactly for her. But the look in her eyes and the pleading made me surrender and I asked her if I can see the book first. She went into her room (a hospital room) and came out, bringing this huge book, turned out the fairy tale is a series of fairy tales .. 8 or so. So I felt I had to refuse, since I'm there to see another patient. I refused gently, and the kid started crying. The mother quickly hug her and asked me in a hurt look and voice, please not to bother her child anymore, and asked me to go. I refused to go as well since my being in the room actually has nothing to do with them, i have another purpose, then this mom had the nerve to ask Nun to ask me out of the room. And Nun actually did!! Which I refused as well. But I looked in shock at Nun, before I woke up...

Watched Wesley's Mystery. I don't know if it was meant for comedy, but I certainlly did laughed.

Found out that guys (my friends that is) prefer big women (not to say fat) instead of really thin ones. So there you go girls out there, stop your dieting right now and rejoice. They want you! And those really thing girls out there, either start eating, or be happy that you might still pass for model looks, and I know some actors/stars don't really prefer big women.

I have to be careful of what I say now, because Papa Smurf found out my old homepage (I think), where did he get the url from anyway? He said it's a year ago, or so, (maybe the previous version?) and it has more than one pics of me, that means.. um.. hopefully yeah the red previous version, not the snowland, please, no..

Here's my little thought last night.
There are a few types of guys which you an identify from the phone when they're busy.
"Hi, Are you busy? Am I bothering anything?"
Eg. He's playing a computer game.

Type A: Oh you're not bothering me but I'm sorry, I'm playing a game here, can I call you back later? - Sensitive, he isn't really bothered he just wants to continue the game, a lot of credit on his phone.

Type B: Oh, I'm playing a game, call me later. -Straightforward, common sense, irritating because you won't know when he would finish his game anyway.

Type C: Actually, I'm playing a game. - Indirect, not answering the question, he assumes that we should know how he actually feels - obviously unexperienced.

Type D: I'm busy right now ...(Diciples III music fades in the background) - He probably thinks girls can't understand the need to play.

Type E: No, not at all, I'm not doing anything, really, go on .. (A voice from the background said, "Hey why do you suddenly shut down your PC?") - Either the girl's extra special, or he's the submissive pleasing-everyone kind

Type F: I'm playing here, but do go on. -He works in the computer department or IT thing. These types of guy are used to multitasking, they force their brain on 256 MB RAM.

Somehow my lecturer got this idea that I have good time-management. ?!?!?!?!!
The reason I have so much time is because I'm not doing anything. Not because I'm busy but I schedule everything. if only she'd seen my room!
And she actually has faith that I can make something spectacular for the disabled children and the APICT award. HUH? I don't even know programming languages that well.

I have some strands of Papa Smurf's hair, anyone knows how to put spell on people based on hairstrands?
If I can't have a picture, nor can I have a lasting memory, this hair will keep me remembering at least hopefully his face.

It is such a happy moment, I just found out. To watch people eat.
I watched Papa Smurf eat just now, and I realised whoever cooks for him would be very happy. His future-wife, whoever she is, I congratulate you first for finding him. And his depth astonished me!

I dreamt of blood, a lot, and a cancelled wedding, mine. I cancelled my wedding a few days before it.
Then I went to the bathroom and saw a lot of blood, mine it seemed. I wonder what to interpret of that.

Site of the day : Terato.com
This site won the Asia Pacific ICT Award. Built by teenagers, for teenagers. Boy don't I feel ashamed I couldn't do something as good as that. OK so both of the guys were in University, one in Inti College, what the hey are they doing in the "Best Students Project (Schools)" category, aren't they supposed to be the "Best Students Project (Institute of Higher Learning)"?

If you want to know the rest of the winners, here. ITA Awards winners 2001

I'm going to like cucumber for a long time from now. Sweet Memories of the cucumber. Lol
Bribery seemed to be getting into me, now I need bribes for a lot of things. He . . He.
My MSS lecturer said that if the project coordinator said "I'm not sure because I haven't seen something like this before" it means scary. Scary is good.

Found out the comment in this page doesn't work well in IE 6.0 some javascript error because of prohosting's banner. But it does work in Opera. That's a good thing.

The Asia Pacific ICT Awards is way too high to reach. But I do intend not to make a fool of myself.

Watched Resident Evil.
Nice and fake.
Milla Jovovich is pretty enough though. The police officer's character wasn't strong enough, so I have no whatsoever sympathy on him.
Went through rain to get a bowl of Soto Ayam. Which was nice but doesn't taste exactly like Soto Ayam. It's Madura-nese anyway.
I asked whether they eat it with Lontong and everyone laughed at me, saying this is not Sate, making me look like some fool.

I watched Showtime.
Comment: It was supposedly funny.

I went to An Australian online shop Wishlist.com.au and the Last Minute Gifts section and the Best Wedding Gifts was cool
I would really love those things in my home:
1. The Napkin Rings looked cool!
2. The Garden TeaLight Holders with Carrier. I dont' know what I would do probably I would just put them in a corner but it looked really nice.
3. The silver vase. Looks like silver, steel look is 'in' these days.
4. THere's a tin looking bird house which can be used as a good postbox (if it has the construction to support it).
5. I saw a wine holder somewhere it was made from steel as well and it's smooth. It's in the Best Wedding Gift Metro Style Wine Holder. Not that I drink any wine but I can use them for other things!
6. Georg Jensen Pass Me Bowls - It looks really artistic!
7. I love fruit bowls, the pure glass, flowery wide bowls
8. Champagne glasses .. Wine glasses.. yeah.. the whole family.
9. Here's something I saw from somewhere else. It's a wooden cupboard sort of thing with glass windows on 2 of the sides. What for? I'll put lots of dried flower and little fruits there, make it look litter-ish. Great for room seperators!
10. A soft japanese lantern-like lamp. You know the square lampshades with some sort of pattern with yellow or soft blue light coming from within. They used to sell those stuff in pyramide I wish I had bought one. But yeah they are sort of expensive. Or the Eva Solo Kitchen Utensils - Fruit Peeler.
OH I found the pic. Here it is

I dreamt of Owen. He was a new friend in the dream and I didn't know much about him. We went to a university together and we did our last year project presentation at the same day. Then I found out, he had a wife after my presentation (I don't know the judges and how the presentation went). This wife also went to the same university but they are seperated. She went away with their daughter one day because of some mistake/misunderstanding. I got to know the wife and she's showed me their baby's picture. The baby's a pretty little thing. Owen's still tring to get his wife back but the wife seemed to ignore his pleadings and I got a bit upset because he didn't tell me he's married with children before. Then the wife told me that Owen's a phd and she herself is a master student. Surprise.

I went out and there were lecturers giving short tutors for the students who would go and do their presentation. I went and sat with a female lecturer, and a girl asked the lecturer about some error messages in programs but the lecturer threw the question at me. So I answered the question for her, trying my best and this lecturer pointed a nail at my cheek and dug into my skin, until I was bleeding. I wasn't moving and I just stared at her showing her that it doesn't really have any effect on me.

Then she got upset seeing Owen who came and stood beside me. She started accusing him of being stupid, and she always knew he was stupid from a long time ago, etc. Owen just looked back at her, but I got really upset. I stood and told her off, saying that "Don't call him stupid, he's not stupid, you don't call a phd person stupid, OK? And He's my friend!!!!" By then everyone was looking at me including the female lecturer and Owen and his wife, and Starky came out of nowhere taking me with her to get the attention off me, since some judges went out from the presentation room and she was worried they would see me in a fit and I would do something to jeopardize my marks.

Dinner with 6 other people makes life today complete. I top up the home style chicken with a roasted chicken set. Surely that would last till tomorrow afternoon.
I've ate with more numbers than that but I realized this is one of the most comfortable dinner I've had with people.

I ate one and a half rice which is a lot for my measure at least. Blame it on the "Home Style Chicken" which was spicy enough so that I just have to eat more rice to balance the ratio. Oh and two full glasses of chinese tea. I'm deffinitely not hungry right now.

I found a good review on Kama Sutra with some pictures from the movie (not naked of course)
I better write the url here before I lose it.

Kama Sutra Review

Anyway, site of the day is Good Housekeeping and House Beautiful from Women.com The url goes to goodhousekeeping but there's an url for House Beautiful down there.

I found a dorm decorating article on the net and it made the room so colorful it looked like it belongs to a 7 year old. Simply speaking, not my style. Not that it was a bad decorating or anything, it looks comfortable but I never did love such fancy colors. Plus the room walls as I remember in the photo was yellow?

I'm daydreaming of my own apartment, empty of all furniture. And a lot of cash. And a trip to the furniture store!

I'm searching through the net for a Kama Sutra literature. My housemates were talking about it, and when I said I saw it somewhere on a site where you could read it, they got very interested. As far as I can remember, the book teaches how to act in front of your partner, how to sit, where to sit, where you put your hands, what to say, to look or not to look. It may be pathetic in a way, but I remembered the book was especially hard to understand, and somewhat uninteresting to me unless you're really keen on the language.

Well, I found the book, but I thought there should be two, one for the male and one for the female, anyway I found it.
If you're that keen on the URL ask me personally, I won't put it up here. (Duh)

This morning a call from a classmate woke me up. I wonder where she got my phone. She was one of the most disliked girl in the Class, since she was a snob, too dilligent by borrowing other people's work, and basically just a pain, or so everyone said. I personally have nothing against her although yes sometimes she does talk too much.
Anyway she wants to borrow my assignments tomorrow and begged me to come and meet her in the library about 3. PM. Will I show up? We'll see tomorrow. I haven't even finish the assignments.

I need a lot of help for my new project title. It is about research support and I am not sure at all whether I can or can't do it. I need to find a research body who would be willing to be interviewed and give me a letter stating I am doing this all for their sakes because I'm such a sweet angel. Right now I have only sis to bug, even the lecturers rejected me. One says we'll see, the other says he had 21 teaching hourse besides I got a leak information that he's getting married. That would surely consume even more time he he he.
But I feel better because now I have two alternatives of projects to do and it seemed no one else did that project.

I haven't done most of my assignments so no more gaming in the nights *sniff* All the diagrams are starting to sicken me. And I still have an 8-page essay to do.

Doing my best to survive my education, and so good luck with your days as well.

Happy birthday Sista!!!!!!!
Another one I didn't get to congratulate here at the day. :(
Anyway I hope you like the whatever it is mom sent you he he
I joined my housemate on a short aerobic at the hostel and she said I look pathetic? well that's the end of whatever it is hehe
I dreamt the other day (can't remember what I dreamt last night), of a big family reunion and there were cousins that I never knew existed from way far down the family line. There were cute male cousins ^_^
Jounetsu - Kinki Kids always sound like a Dance Revolution song thingy, and Preethi-Not confirmed that it's usable for aerobics as well! She sort of liked the song now since it's applicable to her daily diet.
He he

Last night I ate fried rice without taste. Lol. It has all the carrot, the peas, the chicken, but it has absolutely no taste. It was like eating white rice, the others didn't fare much either with nasi kapsah or whatever it is from arab and homos which looked like guana ?! The meal was hopeless.

When the lady came to calculate how much we should pay, she asked me what I ate.
"Fried Rice"
"With what? With chicken ka, with beef ka?"
I had wanted to say Fried Rice without anything but what came out from my mouth was "Nasi goreng tanpa.. rasa" which basically means Fried Rice Without Taste. She sort of grinned and the guys laughed at me. Duh.

Later on that night I felt uneasy in the stomach, I am not sure that the fried rice was to blame.

Then I had a dream about a dirty guy (housemate of Pit) getting married to I-don't-know-who. And I was busy with the preparation, I get to be a bridesmaid! And my dress was beautiful, at least I thought so in the dream. I had a veil thingy but smaller and not over my face of course, a white plump dress with pink layers (since when had i liked pink?) I held a little bouquet. My partner to walk down the aisle is the third bestman, the tallest, who I think was Starky's brother although he doesn't look anything like Starky's brother and apparently his name is Arthur. (I dont' think I know any arthur after kindergarten). I was very happy but Arthur walks unbeliavably fast and I fidgeted to tidy up my dress, fumbling with the bouquet he gave me and also trying to smile my best at the camera.

Went to the cimp talent nite, it was funny and the performance are good. I hardly noticed the time and it took like 3.5 hours! I wish I had lecturers like those. They're good sports and goodlookin' too! At least compared to my lecturers that is.
There was one band who's particularly nervous, the singer. His voice was ok and the song wasn't bad but he was really nervous until he forgot the words. But the crowd cheered on him and sang along with the band so it got on well. It was pretty sweet for the guys to sing along. Really boosted the band up!

The ones singing actually have nice voices so they actually have talents (darn I wish I could sing and dance like 'em).

Pudding Yam Milk Tea Rules!!!

Watched Save the last dance on VCD. She dances beautifully (for me). I always thought that people shouldn't dance alone, like in the talent nite. They somehow look strange, as if they're the only one worked up. But since I saw the movie I realized that that's especially not true for ballet. Ballerinas actually fill the whole stage with them, you just focus on their movements that you don't get to think about the oddities of dancing alone.

Watched "The Family Man" Nicholas Cage? as a diversion to stop my mind from wandering, it seems to be extra active lately.
Well the movie sure fits into the occasion. Why don't I ever have a glimpse anyway??

A new addition to the pictures that has not yet been added yet, this is a sneak peak although it might not be something new to some of you anyway. Warning: People with heart difficulties should not try at any cost to look at it. Don't say I didn't warn you okay? Here it is. I did smile.. I swear, I guess she clicked just when I thought it was over.

I watched Legally Blond.... Euuuummm.... I don't .. like it so much.
What with the overacting? Ok I know it's not as much overacting like Corky Romano.
But I did get to laugh at Corky and not at Legally Blond?!
She's too.. um... noisy maybe?

I dreamt something about the airport again, being late, finding the gate to the waiting room, and the plane left without me.
The other day I dreamt about stones, lots and lots of stones, what significance would that be I wonder. The story was about Starky, somehow becoming the daughter of my mom's friend, and we were in a car with her dad. She wanted to have a wall of stones .. or decorate her house with stones or something. So we went around and round to search for ideas from other houses. I suggested small stones that you stuck together with cement or anything and then spray it so that it's a bit shiny, or stones for garden paths, etc. Somehow though she wasn't satisfied. I forgot how it ends I just remembered there are a lot ... of .. stones.

I fought nature, or at least I thought so ha ha. It's a mind blowing experience. We were walking around the complex and from afar we heard thunder and rain. Someone said the rain is coming towards us and someone else was running, the guards were rushing to their tiny houses and I ran as well. I was never a great runner, not even a sufficient runner, but I ran as fast as I could with that someone else. I asked, "Is this real?" a dozen times or so to her, and she replied "YES!! It's coming!" Coz somehow I can't believe that any rain could be chasing anything, but I heard the rumbles getting closer and I ran even faster. So what if I got wet actually.. but I ran because I wanted to know if I could get to my place dry. All the time I was ordering myself not to fall. I can feel the wind blowing harder and the rumble getting louder and nearer every second. It was one of the most exciting experience in a long time I think. Just as I arrived at the bottom of my apartment, free from the threat of rain the rumble came and drench the place. Gasping for breath I was so proud to win. It's difficult to understand why it's really exciting or anything at all, but I feel great. Deffinitely.

Yesterday was daddy's bday!!! :) I wish I could've posted this on THE day. They're having blackforest and I wished I was there too :(
Well nyways.. Happy bday dad!!
Smooches and hugs.

It meant nothing than dinners and lunches together, that's what we are. There was no gang, no group, or anything significant to allow us to say 'we'. As always I couldn't stop myself from hoping and as always couldn't stop things to dissapoint me. I have too many demands for anyone to fulfill, I have to learn to control my selfishness.

Went and see Ice Age. It was cute. And somehow I found myself being matched by the others as Sid, or whoever the idiot animal's name. I don't have eyes like aliens, I don't have big stomaches, I don't walk as if I'm pregnant, what resemblance could there possibly be.

So it's holiday, but I deffinitely don't feel any change.
Still in college, in the library, still eating the same food. The difference is I don't have to go to classes but instead have about 6-8 assignments waiting to be done, which I don't have the slightest inclination to do.
I'm getting confused again about my project just as everyone else is getting clearer about theirs. Life has just got to be great at this point of time.

I'm searching all over the net for a good Indian girl baby name which has a nice meaning as well. Purpose? Secret, but not for my baby deffinitely

I had a fine dream last night I was working in some magazine company again maybe or maybe not but I have to shoot a cover photo for a magazine or something. Actually it's a team work kind of thing with my SEM lecturer (whoa I dreamt about my lecturer!) and the gang so we wore some sort of costume? and take shots for the magazine cover.

My arms and thighs ached a lot today, I went and play badminton for the first time in many years, and of course didn't make myself a star in the sport topic. We went to play with my Software Engineering Method lecturer, who played quite well since he won, teaming up with Pit. The evening before, we went to dinner with him, all of us put 2 dollars to pay for his dinner. He talked a lot and seemed to like hanging around just drinking and chatting :) Which I don't mind myself! Then He drove Starky and me home which is a long way to the city and back.
I got Connectix VGS 1.4.1 already and intend to resume my Tales of Destiny and Hoshigami: Ruining Blue Earth, if it's going to run in my new emulator anyway. They don't sell Star Ocean 2nd Story anywhere it seems!

The other day I downloaded Live A Live , an old RPG by Squaresoft which is cute but nevertheless as hard as any other Square's game. I still couldn't figure out how to finish off the first Ninja mission! The walkthrough doesn't seem to help brilliantly but I guess since it's an old game I have nothing else to do but just try and finish it off in the simplest way.

Preethi-not had a nightmare.. not a nightmare, she had two nightmares in a row actually.
The first one being her seeing a ghost, something like a black cloth floating around and she got really scared, the second one was her and Ka Ren being stalked or something and Ka Ren was injected with some sort of drug/poison/disease and she was running and running and couldn't wake up although she tried to.
She said nightmares are bad omen because sometimes it came true for her (not exactly the same but something connected to the dream) anyway .

For those who tries to find me online and cannot, well I think I'm going to be eating outside today and probably would get back a bit late. Sorry for the inconveniences!

I got an almost anonymous call from a guy.
He speaks my language, so it was barely a coincidence. His first words were, "Who are you?"
and I replied with similar questions, for now I will call him Ogre since he said his name was something like that as well!
He said he was calling for a friend (I don't know if that really means he's calling to find a friend or calling on behalf of a friend) whatever, so we had a somewhat confused conversation and he said he was in Subang Parade, which eliminates the possibility that it was an oversea call. The caller number was sort of mixed up, the first two number being the Kuala Lumpur code but a digit too much for a regular phone number. Then he asked whether I am not an "atiek" .. which I supposed the person he's really calling ?!
Anyway before he hung up he said he'll call me later!?!?!?
*confuse mode*
Anyway I guess I dont' really mind since it's his money anyway.

I got a 500 HTTP request too long.
What is the maximum character for a post?
I keep on cutting my entries into a few smaller entries because of it

So yesterday, the basin in my bathroom fell apart like Humpty Dumpty and I bet not even the king's horses and all the king's men can put that basin back again.

I was in the room watching this J-Friends 2001 Concert when the whole house shook accompanied with a loud crashing, I thought, "What is that girl doing anyway in the bathroom" and continued my vcd, a few moments after my door was banged in a barbaric way and I responded with, "Yes? Just come in." smoothly. The banging continued accompanied by shouts like, "Come out now!" So I eventually paused my computer and went out to see two pale, numb looking housemates. Then I said, "What?"
"The wash basin fell down!"
"Oh.. Ok.."
"The water can't stop flowing, you've got to stop it!"
"What!?!?!" and I ran to my bathroom but they stopped me and said I should wear my slippers. So I ran back to my room, put on my slippers and got out again. The room 2 was open, Preethi-not wasn't anywhere in sight so I thought it was the basin in room 2, but they laughed at me and said it's in my bathroom. So I ran to the kitchen and saw a haggard looking woman with nothing on but towels, looking dumbly at the bathroom. It was Preethi-not. The other housemate told me to turn off the water since it's bursting out of what used to be the hole for the pipe. I went in, got half wet, decided that I don't have anything strong enough to plug the hole to stop the water. I went out again, Preethi-not was still there, staring, and I noticed that there are blood allover dripping from her. So I asked, "Are you hurt? Where?"
She just pointed to her leg and said "I'm okay"
Blood was leaking from a hole in her leg, it wasn't a large hole, but deep enough for the blood to rain down.
I hurried and said, "Go and tend to your foot now, get dressed and I'll call JT (name of hostel master)"

She objected and still say "I'm Okay!"
I thought, 'but you can't stay there looking naked and all when JT comes, can you?' but instead shouted again, "Just go to your room, get dressed, and take care of your foot!"
I went to the living room where two other housemates still standing there, and said, "Take care of Preethi's foot, she's hurt and get her dressed cuz she's not moving now! I'll get JT!" ( do i sound like a really arrogant pushing person? Coz now when I think about it, I sound like some boss telling people what to do, but I just didn't have that much time to think, so whatever)

They nodded and dragged Preethi to her room. I ran downstairs to JT apartment's (by then my slippers were really slippery and I was struggling to run AND not to slip, in coincidence there was a lack of water at the hostel, and with that rate of water going, we're going to turn into a dessert any hour). I banged the door, no answer (later turned out to be the wrong door, the ex-hostel administrator lived there but moved out) I went down and knocked on the emergency-case-hostel-doctor and got a kid openning the door staring at me and saying his father is out. So I said, "But this is emergency!?"
He pointed upstairs and told me I should find JT. By then I really want to just take off my slippers but I thought if I got some stones in me while i was running, that wouldn't do at all.

The funny thing is when I ran back upstairs a panicked looking girl met me and asked, "Did you see a handphone over there?"
I almost laughed and said,"No No I just got here myself" but restrained from saying, 'I mean look at me! I'm wet, I'm running Do you think I have time to take your handphone as well? LOL' I shouted at my other housemate who was playing in the badminton court and I thought, 'How am I going to tell her to go upstairs now, tell the whole story, etc' so i just said, "Preethi-not's hurt, go and take a look at her?!"

Anyway I knocked at the right apartment this time and got JT's daughter and she smiled, pointed to the left and said, "Office.. Office"
So I ran to the office in another block, ran in and told him the whole story. Luckily he called a person right away, told the guy to come right now and told me where the tap to turn off the whole apartment's water is at. So I ran back and wet my whole body, my white shirt, to my underwear, and turned the tap off. Just when I came out from the bathroom the janitor showed up (I wished I had waited longer), he looked at my wet white shirt which was clinging to me like mad and grinned. LOL The others laughed at me and told me to change my clothes (as if I wanted to be in such an appearance anyway LOL)
Anyway afterwards the guy just plugged something in so the water won't leak anymore and JT came and check on the condition. Preethi-not was taken to a clinic much to her objections and she got stitches on her leg. :( She said she didn't feel anything, but there was another sma.ll cut on her toe and she said that hurts a lot (wonders of the world)

According to her story, my housemate preethi-not was in the toilet, doing whatever she was doing, she slipped and unfortunately her one and only saviour was the basin which it turned out didn't save her at all. The basin fell with her and hurt her leg and so on and so forth.

Somehow though, after the whole incident, the whole house was laughing at me and saying that I panicked and teasing me this and that.
So next time another basin falls and hurt anyone I think I'll turn on the VCD.

Largehead went home so we have one less guy to go out with.
I didn't get a chance to get online yesterday because I was out with everyone else for dinner.
I can't seem to remember what I want to write here yesterday *sigh*
Anyway somebody that I don't know told my housemate that I am a snobbish person. LOL. I've been called this many times by many different people, and I don't really mind. When Nun and Pit first saw me they said I was snobbish as well and I guess I did have some negative thoughts about them as well, the thing is, this person that recently mentioned I'm a snobbish person, I don't know him at all, I don't see him, don't know his name, he's not even a classmate, how does he expect me to go up to him and say hi?! Well perhaps this is just an impression kind of stuff on him, but I couldn't care less now. I'm not that desperate that I want to prove to him I'm not snobbish and all.

I found a veryyyy nice friend the other day. Actually I found out that my friend was actually a very nice person *is there any difference?*
He did something I considered really kind, although he didn't say so I just felt that he did something nice for me. Anyway, thank you.

My dream was amusing. Starky and a guy (I can't seem to remember who) graduated and was working in my mother's office (pharmacy). So I visited there and she was working as an Office Lady ?!?!?! The people there told her to send papers to the other and the other manager sends some paper also to another part and she get to carry the papers! Plus she has a really nasty female boss (she's not under my mom) Then I talked to my mom and she cautioned me that I might jeopardize Starky's and mom's career by visiting her. Then mom's boss came in, and I felt awkward and said a lame 'Good morning Sir' and he sneered at my greeting and I... leaned and stumbled towards him? Suddenly all became blur and I was working with Starky again in a magazine/tabloid company! The boss were the same as I recall and they were too hardworking and expected us to do the same. I was given a layout of the index of the magazine and the boss started saying things like, "Enlarge this column, move this column upwards and fill in the space with more story" etc etc "Give it to me tomorrow". I was "Okay Sir." Then I thought to myself in the dream, 'Hey this is great I'm working in a magazine company" and after awhile, "How come Starky and I are working in a magazine company? I thought she was working in a pharmacy?"

Anyway, I got another unpleasant incident yesterday. It's about..... Halal and non-halal food!!! Yes that is a sensitive topic indeed. I had a sudden urge to eat ice cream at 9 PM last night. I know the restaurant near our hostel sells banana split and it's too tempting to resist. I asked around and a housemate who happens to be a Moslem said she'd join me. So we went and she misundertood thinking I wanted to go to another restaurant. So she started asking me whether the food there is halal or not. So I said, as far as I know yes, they don't sell pork, etc and how can ice cream be not halal? She was unsure and I offered her to return to hostel which she refused. We got there and sat down, I inspected the menu to reassure her that they sell no pork, and I ordered the ice cream and ice lemon tea. The food came and she ate with me, then her friend working there sat with us, so I asked her for confirmation again. Is the food here halal? "Yes, they don't use that sort of cooking oil here, it IS halal" So my friend ate happily and I just teased her for thinking that it's a non-halal.

We got back to the hostel and we met two of her friends, both moslem. So she asked the girl again, and somehow the girl gave her a non assuring answer, and my housemate goes all gloomy and muttered "I Shouldn't go there next time" She went all sad and everything and her friend patted her and said "It's okay, you didn't know, so it's ok" So I was bulging my eyes thinking, 'This girl acted like my housemate actually did something bad by eating ice cream!' I didn't get the words exactly so I re-asked her and she said "The food is ok, the drink is ok, I don't know about the _____". I missed hearing the '____' so I didn't know what she was actually saying. Somehow my housemate got upset, gave me an accusing look (like I tried to deliberately put her in hell by offering my ice cream) and ran upstairs without saying anything to me, left me in the middle of the badminton court. So I again re-asked the girl "You don't know about the what?" but she sort of ignored me and played badminton! So I went upstairs and went to my room. I was already fuming by then. What was that girl thinking saying such things? If she doesn't know then she shouldn't say it in such a scary way and keep her mouth shut. I went out of the room and another housemate asked me what's wrong with 'the housemate' since 'the housemate' didn't talk to her at all and just ignored her. Somehow later that night 'the housemate' talked to me in a sort of casual way so we made up? But I deffinitely won't be asking her to go eat with me anymore.
I'm still tempted to say "Tell your God I forced you to eat the ice cream so he'll put me in hell instead, OK?"

I wanted to buy Mineral Palace by Heidi Julkavits but Times didn't have it although Times are running 10% discount :~~. This story reminds me so much of my lecturer. It costs RM 38.90 in MPH.

So I went to the WMU (western Michigan University) Talent Nite at 5 pm in Audi 7 with my housemates, and we waited and waited and waited till they finally started at 6.10PM (Yes, that's the exact minute). So the first performance started, it was a Pakistani karaoke thing with some dance, really loud, with lots of drums/beats but concluding from the shouts and claps it was an OK although not exactly my definition of talent. Then came the Indonesian band singing Separuh Nafasku and another song which I forgot, somehow there wasn't that much of hype because they weren't moving much around the stage. For me it was ok, the voice was ok, the volume was ok. Next are lots and lots of band bringing rock, metal, alternative songs which I endured (due to so much listening to Japanese songs). There was an acapella by 5 girls, it wasn't really an acapella with different tones, etc it was just singing together without music. They sang Stand By Me which they dedicated to a loving memory of their friend. Felt a tiny wee bit sad then even though they didn't actually have singing voices (no offense). The best was a duet by one Nigerian guy and another Indian cute looking girl who sang Against All Odds, they actually could do the two different tone level so it was cool although the guy got a bit offtone sometimes.
We left before the performances actually ends, why? because housemates got headaches, and they were the ones who forced me into coming anyway! Oh well..