Ox Tongue

We went to this restaurant in Menteng, called Miranda.
I went there a few times before when I was 'younger' with my fam. And I
remembered that they sell Ox Tongue steak, and that my dad and sis liked
it quite a lot.
So I brought my dear there in hope to introduce him to the Ox Tongue world.

Surprisingly though, the word Ox Tongue now had more impact on us than
when I was younger, probably the fault of a popular TV show called "Fear
Factor".
So every bite that he took, that I took, we kept thinking about the idea
of tongue eating. Very hillarious and he named it "Psychological war" .
Very haunting, I could even feel it now.

Otherwise the Tongue was quite acceptable, though a stronger sauce could
help get rid of the "tongue aura".

Maybe if we could find another restaurant with a better concoction for
the Tongue that kept our mind above it.

Embarassing Spouses?

A friend typed to me, that he's going to a wedding being the bestman,
and went insanely annoyed with the bride and groom before the wedding.
And even the bride seemed to be annoyed at the groom, and vice versa. So
spouses-to-be went fighting in public and all. Well perhaps one party is
embarassed about the other one and tries to stop and there goes a
fight.. How many people in the world are able to say to their spouses
something like, "Honey I love you but don't do that, it's annoying"
without getting a fight going on afterwards.

Especially if it's in front of other people, and you saw a friend or
even your spouse embarassing themselves, or making other people
uncomfortable, and you just itch to tell them to stop but they can't
take a hint!

Well I pity my friend but glad he's through with it.

For the rest of the world, good luck with your friends and spouse.

Living with the universe

I'm famous for drawing inane stuff. This is one.
I'm naming it, Living with the Universe.

We all live in seperate worlds, trying to reach our own stars (version of happiness). And when we do connect and interact to each other, we reach through this small hole in the wall or window if u want to name it that way.

We do not give ourselves up completely, nor blend in with the other person. We just reach a small tentacle or hand.. and connect. This is why all of us sees a completely different universe than the other.

This is why, we're all so lonely in some way...
And in fact, is there a point in completely blending ourselves with another person? If we do, then for the rest of our lives do we see the sun, the moon, or both ? Are we happier with just a hand connection, or do we all really want to be one.

Life In A Bottle

Sometimes it's funny
Take a moment to think, really think

What did we really want to be?
Who do we look up to?
How did I ended up here?

Am I really where I would like to be?

A lot of the times maybe the answer is no. Life just keeps on putting obstacles, bends on the road and with a certain probability of probability, made us go one fork instead of the other.
And with so much happening and spinning, suddenly you found yourself in a strange remote desert where you just wish you were home.

Does it matter now? Now that we're in this new place, do we look to somehow find a place for ourselves in it? Or do we still seek to go back to the place we first wanted to be?

Which path? Tell me, which?

Status..

If life is so dissapointing, tell me why do we live? It's the little things, that keeps us going.. just a little bit longer..

I have a colleague.. who says.. that it isn't anger that's in me.. it's 'unreleased dissapointment'. To me .. unreleased dissapointment means anger. It surprises me knowing what she thinks of me..

She said, that I'm a closed person.. who doesn't tell people my private things.. (and I thought I have been complaining too much to everyone), and she sees my dissapointment from the way I talk, my sarcasm, my moods.

Well I've been seeing myself as someone pragmatic, highly negatively realistic, and somehow the things around me have turned me a disillusioned personality. Well maybe that's coz I don't want to be dissapointed more than I already am.. with everything. Maybe that's some sort of protection mechanism.

And this is the way I am right now. It's pretty useless to tell me I should change into this and that.. I'll change eventually, if it's meant to be. In the meantime, I'm trying to let me be me...

The Building Blocks

Hmm... *Doodle from neck upwards is mine, and to the bottom is Ant's.* So what is this girl thinking?

The idea was the building blocks are my office, my poor brain, and my hopes, and it's tumbling down faster than London bridge is.

These few days has been tense, full of conflicts inner and outer, in office and out office. So I'm currently emotionally hollow and has no idea what to say about the problem.

I don't even want to hope for a good solution for everyone, just a simple way out for me...

Yes I'm selfish

The Turtle and The Hippo

Got this image from one of those forwarded email.


Love is universal

Love communicates eventhough you don't even know what species the other one is

and Love..just is.

If you're hundreds of years old, like this turtle, I guess one is either living in a great denial or just so wise that you don't care anymore..

Please let me get to be a good turtle, or at least the hippo..

Attachable Penis

Attachable Penis to help women pee standing.
Brilliant
Should get a nobel for this.

Somebody buy me one. Or import this to Indonesia.

Memoirs of Geisha

So I watched the movie last night, and rated it somewhere B to B+
But the more I think about it, now after 18 hours later I couldn't
remember much of it. Which is a shame.
And which inclines me to think whether the movie was not as good as it
seemed to me after all.

The story was less the same, a bit dramatized, and I wasn't as stunned
with the culture as I felt I should be.
Most of the time the movie was dark, and the rich culture and simple
details failed me.

Some controversies involving what is geisha:
1. Depicted as Not a prostitute
2. But sells / auctions her virginity
3. Finally succumbs to have a danna who pays all her expenses in return
to her time, art, body?

Most people I think, and I, watched the movie because we wanted to see a
movie of a hard
and beautiful profession. But it seemed that the movie focuses more on
the love life of Sayuri.

Nevertheless, interesting and entertaining. Quite worth the money :D

Trust your enemies

Tidak semua orang itu baik dengan tulus.
Hampir semua orang jahat dengan tulus.
Kalaupun ada orang jahat yang tidak tulus, pura-pura jahat, berarti dia
sebenarnya baik jadi lebih bagus lagi.

So trust the bad guys, they don't fail you.
I think there's a famous saying that supports this, but I forgot what.

Go to War

Give the soldiers vision, and send them to die happy for you.

Merry Christmas

Christmas Tree
From white cartons
and ornaments.

Religion is dangerous

Religion Is Dangerous said a merchant in Taiko.
Why? Because it can easily gather many followers, and therefore is a
powerful 'weapon' if used.
Since religion is too complex, much bigger than our human apprehension,
therefore we cannot define valid religions by mere perception.
Because we have no right nor power to stop, ban, or proclaim a religion
wrong,
therefore we have no right nor power to stop the actions of the follower
except by mere human/nation law.

Therefore, religion is dangerous.

http://www.liaeden.info/

Warning: I do not endorse this religion nor am I against it.

George Balanchine's Nutcracker

Yesterday bought some ballet dvds, and turned out disappointing, the
first one turned out to be a parody ballet with she-males. ha ha..
The second one, was George Balanchine's Nutcracker, supposedly, but
turned out to be Maurice Bejart's Nutcracker.
A bit of modern, though I must admit I liked how Felix the Cat seemed to
fly all around the room.

I don't really understand the story, need to do some research to
enjoy it.

Misunderstood

I'm so misunderstood.
I'm not sure why.
And I do so misunderstood
or so people tell me.

Are things out of the loop for me
in purpose
or just because?

Am I saying this coz
I'm really feeling the right thing
or did I misunderstood

Kalau A bukan B

kalau A senang itu salahku
kalau B senang itu bukan salahku
kalau A tidak senang itu salahku
kalau B tidak senang itu juga salahku
kalau A diam itu salahku
kalau B diam itu salahmu
kalau A tak mengerti itu salahku
kalau B tak mengerti itu salah A
kalau A sedih itu salah A
kalau B sedih itu salahku
kalau A berkata A
kalau A berkata B
kalau A tersandung
kalau A menjerit
kalau A menangis
kalau A......
kalau A..

salah, salah, semua salah.

Ugly Blue

Saat raga begitu letih
kemanakah kau lari?
carilah elang bermata hijau
ia akan meneduhkanmu dalam tatapan

Saat jiwa begitu mati
kemanakah kau pergi?
carilah kolam mata air
airnya akan membersihkanmu dalam asa

apakah kau punya elangmu?
apakah kau temukan kolammu?
jika ya, bahagialah dirimu
jika tidak, jadikan aku
elang dan kolammu

Dreams

I had bad dreams these days..

The first one is a few days ago, my dad was swimming in some sort of
lake, and there are a few other kids swimming there too. Then somehow
there's a large crocodile at the edge of the lake.
and the kids played around and sort of touched the crocodile's nose and
quickly get away. I don't know why, but my dad approached the crocodile
too, he touched the nose with his leg, like the kids, but he didn't get
away fast enough and the crocodile at his whole right leg. It was very
gory, scary, and terrifying for me. Then I head Dad's voice saying in
his melancholic way "wah.. papa kena ni wi.. gimana dong wi.. " It was
very sad because I was so far.. and his voice sounded like he gave up.
Then Dad's struggling to get to land but the crocodile was very fast
behind him... then I woke up.
I really wanted to cry..and I kept thinking that if it truly happens
what could I do? Run to him and hit the crocodile? Shoot some stones at
the crocodile? What?
I don't think I'll forget this dream. And I am making sure of that by
putting this in the blog.

The second dream was last night.
I was talking to my boss, my dear 'brother' that I wanted to resign. And
he didn't so much prevented me to go, but he has this very dissapointed
look on his face. He was like 'You've dissapointed me after all I've
done for you and all my hopes for you' and eventually he puts up this
'whatever' attitude and he doesn't care anymore what I do.
This is very hurtful! Then I said "well I'm not sure if I can make it
there anyway, a success"
then he answered, "That's why! and We've never doubted you here." but he
didn't say that to keep me from going. He's just saying that.. 'look at
the difference between me and your future company'. And then he gave me
some simple task that I can't concentrate on doing because I was so
devastated with the way he reacts.

God Help Me.

Very scared... very sad..

Strange Remix

Utada Hikaru Kremlin Dusk VS 1.8 mm. Just in inspiration while hearing the song and reading the movie script. Text remix

All along I was searching for my Lenore
In the words of Mr. Edgar Allan Poe
Now I'm sober and "Nevermore"
Will the Raven come to bother me at home
We can kiss everything goodbye.

Calling you, calling you home
You... calling you, calling you home

By the door you said you had to go
Got it.
Couldn't help me anymore
-Just like that?
This I saw coming, long before
So I kept on staring out the window
-Just like that.
Calling you, calling you home
l don't see anyone.
You... calling you, calling you home

I am a natural entertainer, aren't we all
Holding pieces of dying ember
I'm just trying to remember who I can call
Who can I call
They're probably inside...
watching us.
Home... calling you, calling you

I run a secret propaganda
They could just take the money and kill us.
Aren't we all hiding pieces of broken anger
That's why you gotta stay in the car,
I'm just trying to remember who I can call
in case something goes wrong.
Can I call
l owe you everything.
Born in a war of opposite attraction
Everything l am, everything l'll ever be...
It isn't, or is it a natural conception
Torn by the arms in opposite directions
and if it takes me my entire life,
l will pay you back.
It isn't, or is it a Modernist reaction

Born in a war of opposite attraction
And l just don't mean the money.
It isn't, or is it a natural conception
l mean what you do for me...
Torn by the arms in opposite directions
It isn't, or is it a Modernist reaction
what you make me.
Is it like this
Is it always the same
When a heartache begins, is it like this
Without you l'm just a dreamer...
Do you like this
Is it always the same
but with you...
Will you come back again
Do you like this
there's not a thing in this world
that l can't do.
Is it always the same
point, and you pull the trigger.
Will you come back again
I will.
Do you like this
Do you like this
Swear it.
Is it like this
Is it always the same
If you change your phone number, will you tell me
l swear.

Is it like this
Is it always the same
When a heartache begins, is it like this
l love you.

If you like this
Will you remember my name
Will you play it again, if you like this

Oh God

Lemmings - The ugly Duckling.

A cute cover of a game for PSP. it works like Lemmings. Cute and stupid at the same time.

I feel like a lemming. someone out there, tell me where I lived my life wrong, and tell me what did I do right? Because i feel i'm such a mistake..