MI3

We watched Mission Impossible: 3, like the whole company together, but some people didn't show up. As usual there are regular non show ups who I'm still begging to know why.
We had quite good fun though I'm having a flu and wasn't too chatty.

MI3 is pretty good. Somehow reminded me of Dan brown's plot.
Well we get to see the rubber face mask for undercover scenes, the only thing that I remembered from MI series. I noticed that Tom Cruise is getting old, and somehow the female main character looked like Katie Holmes (is that why they're kissing for so long?)

On the Japanese side, we watched Densha Otoko series at home. It's funny in a lame sense, the plot is way pushy but anime lovers should like it, they'd find so much of themselves in the guy. I'm still waiting to see if there's any real plot in the movie. Lol.

He he....

Things does not have to go my way, they just have to be right... and I
happen to be telling you the right way to do it...

LOL

9th May 2006

I found a new destination to go. Disneyland.
A perfect place where at least I think my good dreams should come true.
Though I haven't heard people around me buzz after going there but
still... a must see.
When can we go? How can we go?
Still searching, but never gives up.

I hope I can go there .. before I'm too old to enjoy it!

Excited!

I found a tutorial on how to print on fabric directly!
Found it here!
It's so cool and I can't wait to try.. what I need is only two things now:
1. The printer and the ink
2. The freezer paper, and what IS freezer paper in Indonesian?

Still I'm excited as hell.

No Perfect Job

There's no such thing called as a perfect job.

I realized this. Everyone may realize the same thing, but it is kept as a philosophy for disillusionment.

Yet We're always looking aren't we?

When I was down there, I long to be high up, managing the important, becoming important.
Now I'm halfway up, and I don't like what I see.

People have two choices to improve in their career I think,
1. To be the most expert in whatever that is, and you stay there, only better and better and the pay gets higher.
2. To be on the top. Starting to generalize all the tasks, focused on management, etc.. and the pay gets higher as well.

I have chosen no. 2. I don't think it's possible to be 1. But now the more I see it, I begin to feel that no 2 is not the answer for me, nor is 1. What should I do then?

I don't think I'd be happy in either choices, but the fact is we gotta work, right? So I'm scared that I won't feel happy ever until maybe when I get old .. There must be some other way to spend life?!

What Women Wants

A typical title for a typical story.

Women are happy with a happy partnership life, preferrably with a good
husband or spouse.
Women are happy with a happy career life, a career where it isn't
crucial for her to have but where she can explore and test her abilities
and not be bored with life.

How many women have this? I just want to write on people I think have
what they want.
As far as I can remember I have only 2 good friends that I think have
this, one is Lulu, a happy wife with a photo studio as a job, she
travels from Bandung to KL every now and then. From her husband to her
family and job. Wonderful, simply enviable.

The other one is a pretty friend from my junior high, she is beautiful,
she is happily single, and she has a career in linguistics and joins a
drama/theatre group. Maybe not as life-fulfilling as my previous friend
but she seemed pretty satisfied.

In the end I just want to question, how happy are you, are me ? :D I'm
always in awe when I read about their lives, but actually, mines aren't
that bad either.. hah ha.. well I hope the worse part of my life proves to be well worth it.

Old Stories

There's another thing that tonight am bothering me.

I heard and was kind of involved in a long (2 hour) session discussion on religion. Yeah, the old story of answerless endless questions. Well the one who initiated the discussion seemed really happy with whatever conclusion they had.

The story / discussion is about questions like, Should we question God's plans? WHy does God creates brain if He wants us to use our heart to believe? etcetera etcetera and then moving on to some 'rules' that some religions have on their community.

I find it hard to see myself going into a religion where I don't believe ALL of its values, I mean, we can't simply choose a religion and then filters out all the things that we want? Then everyone can have their own way, they can say that rules like going to church don't have to be followed since they don't agree with it.

I don't agree with myself going into a religion when I can't agree with the religion, except maybe if I have to for technical purposes such as marrying someone, or legal purposes. If I declare myself or goes into a church community where I strike out some values that doesn't come into my logic, what's the basic difference with if I don't enter a religion and adopt some values that this church has? The difference that I can figure out is more on the social community side, which doesn't necessarily have to do with God except by doing good deeds and to do good deeds you don't have to do it to your own specific comunnity. And if you feel that you join the community just for the sake of fun / socializing, then what's the point in entering a club where you can't feel at home with, or can't discuss stuff with, or who restricts you with rules?

I may be stupid about these religion stuff, she mentioned that the other two participants were intelligent and said nothing about me-not that I mind, but Thank God I can have my own belief?!

GO!Heroscape!

I finally played my 350 thou rupiah or was it 400 thou rupiah worth of game!!
Look at this, for those you pathetic fools who don't know what Heroscape is.


I finally played my 350 thou rupiah or was it 400 thou rupiah worth of game!!
Look at this, for those you pathetic fools who don't know what Heroscape is.



Turned out really fun! But lost stupid twice to my hunny, once by a mere 10 points and the second one by 1 inch!!! Oh well I'll get there eventually!
We're trying to create more characters and game scenarios of our own with some figurines like Disney and all sorts and I found out that I haven't really bought any figurine since a long long time. Not so much of the type of toy my family is fond of. I had hoped to find at least a few old figurines but ended up with an old clown figurine (not really that interesting) and farm animal toys from my sis's old toys.

But no worries, since the other side of the family (his) are figurines maniacs.. they have all sorts of characters and miniatures and whats-the-use stuff ready for use!

I'm looking forward for my next game anyone wants to join me? A diversion from my thesis (which I may add just recently been reviewed by my counselor and was requested to change 70% of my 2nd chapter *sniff*)

V for Vendetta

A wrong movie for the wrong country to play. Though I am sure and have
witnessed that many liked the idea!
I myself am not impressed by the idea, well I must remember that it IS
from a comic book.
Exploding the parliament building (by a supposedly protagonist) is
stupid whether it's in real life or in a movie.
How does the author / writer think to impress a reader of the idea of
blowing up the parliament building?

"Wow, what a great idea, blow up the symbol of the people. Kill
government officials, then... ? Leave the reader to think what's next."

I'm giving it a C.

Indigo Children

I am exploring the subject of indigo children, crystal children and the likes on the internet.
There are about 25 questions to identify if you are an adult Indigo, and I can answer yes to at least 15 of them I'm sure. Not really counting.

But we as society and as relatives or closed ones tend to abolish the thought or repulsed or even ridiculed the idea of anyone that feels connected with this Idea.
I for one, admit felt connected although I know I don't have psychic abilities or strange behaviours.

It's just a simple thought that when I read the stuff about Indigo children, that seems that their purpose of life is a good purpose and that I, who am not Indigo, could try to achieve too.

IF , and only IF, I AM an Indigo adult, I wonder if I could be more frustrated than I already am with this world.

And again!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Quiz O Mania

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

I'm a donut

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun. You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life... Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut. To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

What Donut Are You?

Hiccups

Hiccups! Why ! How! When!

I spent yesterday in 5 sessions of hiccups, I'm not sure what I did wrong. And each time I got a hiccup I drank lots and lots of water, and after the fourth time I gave up drinking since I got so bloated.

To explore on my curiousity, I Googled up "Hiccups" and got these hillarious article(s)
This site explorese the whys with cures for hiccups, a very long list and absurd

May I quote
" Jump out of a plane."
" Urinate; concentrate on both peeing and breathing."

On a safer side:
Explains the whys of hiccups in an almost understandable method

Good luck with your hiccups!
I've seen a person hiccuped for hours! Thank goodness I didn't experience that. All I know is that if it's for hours there must be something wrong with you or the medicine that you take

Ox Tongue

We went to this restaurant in Menteng, called Miranda.
I went there a few times before when I was 'younger' with my fam. And I
remembered that they sell Ox Tongue steak, and that my dad and sis liked
it quite a lot.
So I brought my dear there in hope to introduce him to the Ox Tongue world.

Surprisingly though, the word Ox Tongue now had more impact on us than
when I was younger, probably the fault of a popular TV show called "Fear
Factor".
So every bite that he took, that I took, we kept thinking about the idea
of tongue eating. Very hillarious and he named it "Psychological war" .
Very haunting, I could even feel it now.

Otherwise the Tongue was quite acceptable, though a stronger sauce could
help get rid of the "tongue aura".

Maybe if we could find another restaurant with a better concoction for
the Tongue that kept our mind above it.

Embarassing Spouses?

A friend typed to me, that he's going to a wedding being the bestman,
and went insanely annoyed with the bride and groom before the wedding.
And even the bride seemed to be annoyed at the groom, and vice versa. So
spouses-to-be went fighting in public and all. Well perhaps one party is
embarassed about the other one and tries to stop and there goes a
fight.. How many people in the world are able to say to their spouses
something like, "Honey I love you but don't do that, it's annoying"
without getting a fight going on afterwards.

Especially if it's in front of other people, and you saw a friend or
even your spouse embarassing themselves, or making other people
uncomfortable, and you just itch to tell them to stop but they can't
take a hint!

Well I pity my friend but glad he's through with it.

For the rest of the world, good luck with your friends and spouse.

Living with the universe

I'm famous for drawing inane stuff. This is one.
I'm naming it, Living with the Universe.

We all live in seperate worlds, trying to reach our own stars (version of happiness). And when we do connect and interact to each other, we reach through this small hole in the wall or window if u want to name it that way.

We do not give ourselves up completely, nor blend in with the other person. We just reach a small tentacle or hand.. and connect. This is why all of us sees a completely different universe than the other.

This is why, we're all so lonely in some way...
And in fact, is there a point in completely blending ourselves with another person? If we do, then for the rest of our lives do we see the sun, the moon, or both ? Are we happier with just a hand connection, or do we all really want to be one.

Life In A Bottle

Sometimes it's funny
Take a moment to think, really think

What did we really want to be?
Who do we look up to?
How did I ended up here?

Am I really where I would like to be?

A lot of the times maybe the answer is no. Life just keeps on putting obstacles, bends on the road and with a certain probability of probability, made us go one fork instead of the other.
And with so much happening and spinning, suddenly you found yourself in a strange remote desert where you just wish you were home.

Does it matter now? Now that we're in this new place, do we look to somehow find a place for ourselves in it? Or do we still seek to go back to the place we first wanted to be?

Which path? Tell me, which?

Status..

If life is so dissapointing, tell me why do we live? It's the little things, that keeps us going.. just a little bit longer..

I have a colleague.. who says.. that it isn't anger that's in me.. it's 'unreleased dissapointment'. To me .. unreleased dissapointment means anger. It surprises me knowing what she thinks of me..

She said, that I'm a closed person.. who doesn't tell people my private things.. (and I thought I have been complaining too much to everyone), and she sees my dissapointment from the way I talk, my sarcasm, my moods.

Well I've been seeing myself as someone pragmatic, highly negatively realistic, and somehow the things around me have turned me a disillusioned personality. Well maybe that's coz I don't want to be dissapointed more than I already am.. with everything. Maybe that's some sort of protection mechanism.

And this is the way I am right now. It's pretty useless to tell me I should change into this and that.. I'll change eventually, if it's meant to be. In the meantime, I'm trying to let me be me...

The Building Blocks

Hmm... *Doodle from neck upwards is mine, and to the bottom is Ant's.* So what is this girl thinking?

The idea was the building blocks are my office, my poor brain, and my hopes, and it's tumbling down faster than London bridge is.

These few days has been tense, full of conflicts inner and outer, in office and out office. So I'm currently emotionally hollow and has no idea what to say about the problem.

I don't even want to hope for a good solution for everyone, just a simple way out for me...

Yes I'm selfish