Days full of games. Blissful!
Downloaded Pizza Tycoon, Princess Maker 2, Secret of Mana 1 and 2, Live a Live, 7 Cities of Gold. My life is gonna be busy. :P
I wanted to download Quest for Glory 3 since it brings back good memories of the game, but it's 7 megs... which is actually less than PM2 but finally I downloaded the latter.

Smurfie's stuck with his stories... actually glued to the screen instead of football ... WOW!

OOAD is hard, GDSS is hard. What else is going to be hard.
Friend is getting married, wow.. it seems such a short time since he's been a lousy flirter to the opposite sex. Anyway, people do change and do get seriously serious.
All the best and cheers to him.

I lost my silly exam docket which was fortunately re-printable. I watched the game while writing GDSS and all the rest of the gang down.
I still can't memorise some of the explanations needed. Sniff.

I finished Mists of Avalon. Tragic, but nonetheless beautiful.
The priestess of Avalon may not be as beautiful but I hope the difference may not be so large.
We shall see :)

"he worships the ground she walks on" .. where did that phrase first come from? or she worships the ground he walks on?
I have grown to like the phrase. Though I know not why, only some encounters on books have I met the phrases.

One exam has passed, it was not easy as the question trends change. I hope not to meet the same fate with the rest two.
I have never understood DSS before, even as we went through the questions over and over again it remains alien to me.
But now as I try to memorise them, slowly some understanding came, but not much I'm afraid, and I can only hope that I can understand enough by the time Sunday comes.

Senegal France 1 0 .. as if the rest of the world did not know this.
LOL. Sunday exam. Now internet. Live for today, yeah!!!!
I dreamt of Kudinar, again. But I forgot what the dream was about.
Only now can I recall that I dreamt of him. Is something wrong with him? somewhere? out there?
I surely hope not.

Watched Monday.
Crazy Funny Japanese Movie. Go figure.
About time I start revision.
When revision starts, everything else but time stops. Sniff!
Started reading Priestess of Avalon. Still in the middle of Mists of Avalon but I'm always ready for new books.

Watched Star Wars II. Attack of the Clones.
Well. where are the clones actually?
Nice aircrafts!

The college is full of footballitis people. Baloons everywhere now for the virtual FIFA thingy. It's a game, I suppose?
I'm too ignorant to notice.

I'm reading Mists of Avalon.
Good for practice not to mind things so much. I'm trying not to delve my feelings to the book so much. It's a lot about religion. Good for those who have good faith!

Performed.
Almost fell down cuz I jumped too high.
Besides that everything was ok.
Very hot.
Very sweaty.
The silly MRC people lost my library card.
i'm enjoying free full access to any computer though now.
So I don't want to really complain.
HA HA HA

The waiting was much so much longer than the practice.
But it turned out better than I had expected.
Sleepy eyes and full stomach, what else can a girl want?

Passed up the assignments.
Saturday is dancing day again.
Para para. this time without the Macarena part, but instead I fly around clapping hands.
How crappy it is? just imagine.
Ayumi Hamasak's I am.. is haunting me.
AAAAAAAAA get me off it!!!

Watched Spiderman. Well..spiderman! What else do you expect? Lol
Two more days,two more assignments to go. GO BABA!

Someone just said Baba the witch. Cool, so now I"m a witch ?!

Dreamt about Para Para Sakura. We were dancing again with a lot more people. The instructor now is a girl who danced perfectly (or so supposedly). I kept missing my time count and I danced horribly.
Anyway, it was just a dream.

The anticipation was not mine alone, it seems.
But the knowledge that there are others who anticipated the same with me, is not such a beautiful fact.

A few days ago I dreamt about riding a cartwheel or something that's similar, with Starky and Smurf. We were going towards a bridge, and somehow there is a fog (probably) and I can't see a thing in front of me, or even beside me. So there I was alone riding the cartwheel and everyone else just dissapeared. Somehow the cartwheel brought me to some place and my phone started ringing. Starky called, it seemed that she's been at her house forever and she was telling me some things I can't remember now. The phone rang again while Starky was still online and Smurf called. He also reached home way before, saying like, I've been home since 6 o'clock or something. So the question remains who was I riding with all this time?

I started getting confused about my phone, both were talking at the same time and none can hear my voice, so I wanted to disconnect the line and pressed and pressed the red button. But their voice kept reaching me, they kept talking....

Kowai. Jibun de kizutsuita, ikiru tame ni.
Minna ushinatta toki ha namida mo iran, sono tame ni de, ima kizutsuketeita.
Sore de ore no jinsei da.

Watched Kenshin again. Always left me stunned afterwards. Sacrifices, struggles, honor, left me in bitter sadness.

Blogger's nuts it refused to post my last post. But anyway I'm rewriting it again for the second time.

Happy. Verrry happy.
Nightmares doesn't matter anymore. I don't even remember the dreams. I think I'm where I want to be.
I haven't been online much, and I'm enjoying it. I'm tired at nights and fell down asleep instantly, it's great compared to the almost-insomnia nights.

I handed in the proposal. He said, "What? I'm your supervisor!?" Then I was "Yeah, who else?"
He reluctantly signed under the word "SUPERVISOR". I pity him.

Flying with umbrella to Ipoh in a storm wind. I held three umbrella, let go of two, and held on fast to one, which is my kero keroppi umbrella! YAY!
Then I saw two teachers and a professor sitting down discussing a new mathematical/physic formula!?!?!?!?
Before I knew it, my parents were watching Pokemon on TV?

Long walks are revelations.
Two more days to proposal deadline. I'm stuffed. I'm lazy. I'm in a cyber cafe.
We don't have much time. I have to keep focusing on what's now instead of being insecure of what's going to come next.
I keep forgetting, but I am trying.
It's pathetic that I got sad again on and off when I think of 'time'.

New Problem: I can't stand being away too long.
Everything turns quiet and silent.
I'm not playing because I don't like to play. I always end up losing.
So why doesn't anyone believe that?
As much as it hurts I'm trying to cover it up with my hyperactivity.

Still isn't quite well yet, but somewhere there.
Anyone who knew my daily activity since a few days ago would have thought that there is no way to recover soon.
Pretty-Not is gone.
She went at 5.30 AM and I didn't wake up to see her off.
We knew that we shouldn't get attached to anyone because here we are in impermanent state.
It's either build a wall, or just blew the wall and get on with life as each person goes.
I found that the choice are not much of a choice after all.

PS: Don't forget to smile today. It does so much good in shooing the negative sparks away.

Nauseatic.
Raining.
Dozing again.
Sleeping becomes a hard task. I'm no longer enjoying the luxury.

I posted up the two poems. You can see them in the 'write' page or just click here .
The topmost two are those.

Give me the ability to trust myself again. I need this, I think.