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Even if a tree doesn't seem to grow straight, it's still looking for the
same light...
-DW

Singapore..

I was in Singapore a few days ago for 6 days in total.
I had a good time, some extremely tiring time, some confused times.. all is good.

I went on 31st, our hotel was much much worse than my Malaysia trip. This time it's almost red light hotel hahaha. I went all over the country (read: city) and shopped a bunch of goodies for the happy people back home.

I was upset the first day coz I didn't have anyone to take me anywhere at all, and I never got a chance to meet a good friend there :( which is such a shame since he's so busy! The thing is when I got home in Jakarta I realized how much more problems there are in Jakarta, home and work. While in Singapore I've been busy with work but having a good time (until late night).


I got some piccies but I haven't really got it coz it's on my boss' camera phone..

To be continueedd..

...

Do you know
how much time passes
if you disappear
and come back again?

I would say
not a thousand years
but there simply would be
no time lost

All because
that I would
simply disappear too
and reappear with you

Do you know
what would I dream of
if I didn't dream of you?

I would say
there would be no dreams
and only sleepless nights
without you in my dreams

Do you know
how the world would sound
if you go?

I have to say
the world would simply be
a mass of noise
a scream
for you

Scotty

Here's a pic of Scotty!! My all new latest creation!! Made just for hmm hmm... with the right formula!!

I'm using a free pattern. And hopefully will get a kinda rough authentic look.
Whaddya think of Scotty!?!?!

He definitely took a while to finish. Jeans is very hard to pierce so my hands got stiff after awhile and I couldn't get the stitches as even as I wanted it to be.
But anyway.. Scotty's my maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan! Love him love him love him.

A quote from Sad Love Song

Some people say if you want it badly enough you will be able to meet, how badly do I have to want you?

I am afraid that I cannot find you.. forever..

--- Joon Hyoong..

Need

1. Patience
2. Hard Work
3. Humility
4. Compassion
5. Understanding

In the end

In the end.. I was saved.. time again.. by your smile.. and your chids...
In the end.. I was saved.. by the outsiders..
by the unknown

..

If I send email would I be reprimanded
If I ignore.. would I be scolded
If I follow.. would this be worth it?

Rants

Birthday Resolution to be
1. Need to finish Scotty my dog so I'll be happier
2. People don't tell the truth so stop believing
3. Give up about the company
4. Get over bitchy and backstabbers
5. Plan next craft project, something to keep me sane !

Management & Information Management Problems

There are a bunch of problems in the office.. and not all of them are
the management's fault.. though some are!
I'm trying to juggle my way through the information passed through me,
making sure I pass the right ball to the right person, making sure I
threw the ball hard enough for him/her to catch and easy enough. We
desperately need some kind of management information flow here where
people know where to go to with what information. Right now everyone
says different things about one single issue which shows how much
information is lost on the way between one person to another.

Today I found out that I missed an important information, because my
'colleague' didn't think it was relevant to me and was relevant that if
I know that the plans would change or something.
We need more trust here!!!

Then I found uot that the production team has also missed telling the
marketing people some real critical infos... which I accidentally found
and passed through instead. The info has no important significance to me
myself but I found myself getting dissapointed of how much people missed
telling each other. Hopefully these kind of 'accidents' won't happen to
me. I have notified the proper / related people about these info flow
problem and hopefully things will get better.

Things will get better if we try to make them better, ain't it so?

Did you know.. I made a lamb..

Lol, I got a free pattern on one of the blogs on the internet and I
sewed up a small lamb doll.
Overall... well it's juat OKAY. The ears were too large, and I didn't
sew up the under gusset properly. Plus, I didn't fill up the lamb with
enough fillings.
:( It certainly isn't perfect despite everybody's comment that it looks
nice.
Frankly I want to make it better! Shall I cut it up? I'll post some
pictures later on.

The lamb is now at my bfs house, standing on a glass shelf in his and
his sister's room.
I hope next time I'll do better..

Strands Of Life

Relationships are like the pictures of chromosomes in those biology books..
Long, with strange holes that you don't recognise, and bumps or crosses
each other at some point.
Some will never cross again, some will be paired through the whole length.
No idea where the strand will go, and have no idea that however I try to
cross or pair it with another if it will ever work.
But I need to survive in the meantime, and see where it leads, don't I?
We all need to survive however our strand is filled with those holes and
never cross with any other's.

There are going to be many goodbyes soon, and it is just starting.
It's funny how nothing happens for a long time.. status quo.. and then
suddenly everything changes in an instant that you never expect it would.
Like journey(ing) through this nagai.. time tunnel and suddenly when you
got out of it everything pulls you and sucks you out in a black hole.
I just hope I'll see you at the end of the tunnel.

Called by the devil herself..?

He he..
On my first day in Soerabaja there's a few missed calls with no numbers.
At the afternoon I managed to pick up the call and it was from a woman:
Me: Hello?
Her: Hello?
Me: Yes?
Her: Who's this?
Me: Huh?
Her: Is this Dewi?
Me: Yes. Who's This?!!?!
Her: No. Nothing important.
Click
She put down the receiver..
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Who's that womannnnnnnnnnnn..
If she's a friend checking out or forgetting my number how come she
didn't say something like "oh.. it's me. Just checking out that this is
still ur number"
She said "No Nothing Important" in a chotto unfriendly way.
...
Might she be a ghost?
Or a jealous woman?
Or a predator?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa....
----- Click ----

Eyes Open Wide

I have found a need to know my relatives better :( I've been half-asleep
living through these world.
I love the patience of my grandma..
How she is often silent, unobstrusive and doesn't ask too much questions..
She is highly attentive though, though I cannot say I'm very close to
her since I don't get to meet her that often.
I should say however, that I'd love to grow old like her
*personality-wise* if I ever get old.
:D

Back..

Back from Surabaya.
Had a wonderful holiday, and got tired of Indonesian food. Need
Japanese/Western and more Chinese food!!!

My sis going off on an airplane to NZ first, hope she has a safe journey
all the way and enjoyed the trips.
I hope she'll enjoy her new job as well and will tell me more about it
later.
*Sending hugs over the air*

Final Fantasy Concert

Hey Yay!
I watched Final Fantasy Concert by Twilite Orchestra last week in Tennis Indoor Senayan.
It's kinda like watching a good movie beside a little baby in the cinema. Good contents, bad environment.

But anyway the songs were good of course and it has started a Final Fantasy Fever in the office since some of our friends watched too.

We sat in the tribune while the others went for the Festival (Standing) tickets.

These are some piccies that I shot from my phone's camera.

Being the Bad Person

In our lives we make choices. Some choices are hard, some are easier to
make like what's for dinner today.What if, one day, you have to make a decision that's either way is bad. Like the silly test about who to save when you can only choose one person to save. Like what if you have to choose between bad and the worse. Can one be fair in one's choices?

Am I ready to be a bad person when the time comes? Are you?
Knowing that either way around you're going to carry a large hole in your heart, a burden in your deep soul, a tear that you might never allow to fall, can you make the decision?
And if that's not enough, you know people are going to hate you for the decisions you make, and you yourself will be haunted and will sometimes regret it. The path you took. No one might ever understand why you said what you said, did what you did.  And sometimes you would have no chance
or no strength to tell anyone. Can you make the decision?

But hey someone have to do the dirty job, someone has to be blamed.
People need to blame to rectify themselves, to reassure that however hard the decision is, it's still wrong to some people. We can't always be right. Or can we?

I always thought it's great to be a good person, but to be a 'bad' person, at least from everyone else's view, well sometimes it took more sacrifice, more courage, and more heart.

...

So happy to meet you

I want to meet new people, who so wonderfully changed me and how I live
my life in their little ways..

I have loved the experience last week.. of me meeting people in Malaysia
all by myself.. then meeting a beuatiful Korean woman.
I've learnt so much from how they talk, they present themselves and say
what they want to say.

It has particularly pushed me to be a better person.. a better person at
communicating I hope.
I used to be very passive. When there're new people around I would hold
myself back until that person is introduced by someone else or introduce
themselves.
Now I realized that I need to take a more active role, be more cheerful
towards new people and initiate myself to introduce myself.. and it has
worked I think in a much better way.

I just want to improve who I am, whom I work with, and how I work..

Thank you for those of you whom I have met.. because you have touched
and taught me things that you never realized teaching.

supermanNme

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That's Superman!! .. handsome isn't he!?!!
and who's right next to him but meeee!!!
Yay!

I got to meet the superman.. he's kakko iiiii

Would love to take a pic with my hands on his waist or chest but people are loooooooookin'!

The Happy Thursday

Relating on what happened on my trip besides the Aircraft and the hotel,
I get to see some of my friends!!
I got to meet Lulu and KahLeong!! We spent the whole day shopping, I had
lunch with Lulu in 1Utama which is now a very large Mall just outside KL.
It was a quite good ramen shop, although they gave very little sashimi
to us :(.

I bought some omiyages for the people back home, rushed over here and
there before finally getting picked up by KahLeong outside the mall.
He drove this cute Kancil that seemed small for his size hahaha. Anyway
we went to Petaling street, and shopped some more.
I bought 3 cool T-Shirts that I hope won't be ruined by washing. It has
a printed monkey face that's just catchy and good. I'll post up a pic
when I wear it.
I also gave 2 of the other T-Shirts to My Dear and he loved it!! Thank
Goodness!!

I caught a glimpse of a good oriental looking bag but didn't get to ask
how much was it for. :(

I also bought some J-Drama VCDs with Bahasa Malaysia text which I 'm
sure not many people would love reading it. Anyway it's for me myself so
I'm pretty satisfied.
I have yet to watch them though. Plus I bought an original DVD of Grave
of the Fireflies live action for RM 12 something hopefully with a good
English subtitle.

I ate a so-so Char Siew Rice with Kah Leong. They gave so many Char
Siews that we couldn't finish them all! I actually have unclear pics of
the Char Siew and the Petaling Street. Will Post them when I get home.

What a wonderful... stress-free ... day!

Here's a pic of the petaling street... just when I'm getting home.
There's a few car strangely parking. We suspect it's intel hahaha
Well, we caught YOU on the camera!