9.30.2003

You may be surprised
but it wasn't you at all
when these times came by
only the past make me whole
only the past understood
only in the past i can dwell
swimming in the dark

not the tragic past
not also the confusing past
that sweet innocent past
where there was nothing else
not even you

so it wasn't you at all
although i was laughing
and they think me insane
a hypocrite by the name

but i can't help it
if it wasn't you at all
right now
right then
until when?
I have no candles to blow
no song to sing
no falling stars
but i did smile

Somehow the tears flow by
and the window stayed dry
the thoughts afar
i wished i was as wise as you are

hearing old voices
seeing old faces
making me smaller
I'm fading why

it doesn't matter
if i laugh or cry
i only wished
your fragrance was there