I had bad dreams these days..
The first one is a few days ago, my dad was swimming in some sort of
lake, and there are a few other kids swimming there too. Then somehow
there's a large crocodile at the edge of the lake.
and the kids played around and sort of touched the crocodile's nose and
quickly get away. I don't know why, but my dad approached the crocodile
too, he touched the nose with his leg, like the kids, but he didn't get
away fast enough and the crocodile at his whole right leg. It was very
gory, scary, and terrifying for me. Then I head Dad's voice saying in
his melancholic way "wah.. papa kena ni wi.. gimana dong wi.. " It was
very sad because I was so far.. and his voice sounded like he gave up.
Then Dad's struggling to get to land but the crocodile was very fast
behind him... then I woke up.
I really wanted to cry..and I kept thinking that if it truly happens
what could I do? Run to him and hit the crocodile? Shoot some stones at
the crocodile? What?
I don't think I'll forget this dream. And I am making sure of that by
putting this in the blog.
The second dream was last night.
I was talking to my boss, my dear 'brother' that I wanted to resign. And
he didn't so much prevented me to go, but he has this very dissapointed
look on his face. He was like 'You've dissapointed me after all I've
done for you and all my hopes for you' and eventually he puts up this
'whatever' attitude and he doesn't care anymore what I do.
This is very hurtful! Then I said "well I'm not sure if I can make it
there anyway, a success"
then he answered, "That's why! and We've never doubted you here." but he
didn't say that to keep me from going. He's just saying that.. 'look at
the difference between me and your future company'. And then he gave me
some simple task that I can't concentrate on doing because I was so
devastated with the way he reacts.
God Help Me.
Very scared... very sad..