Status..

If life is so dissapointing, tell me why do we live? It's the little things, that keeps us going.. just a little bit longer..

I have a colleague.. who says.. that it isn't anger that's in me.. it's 'unreleased dissapointment'. To me .. unreleased dissapointment means anger. It surprises me knowing what she thinks of me..

She said, that I'm a closed person.. who doesn't tell people my private things.. (and I thought I have been complaining too much to everyone), and she sees my dissapointment from the way I talk, my sarcasm, my moods.

Well I've been seeing myself as someone pragmatic, highly negatively realistic, and somehow the things around me have turned me a disillusioned personality. Well maybe that's coz I don't want to be dissapointed more than I already am.. with everything. Maybe that's some sort of protection mechanism.

And this is the way I am right now. It's pretty useless to tell me I should change into this and that.. I'll change eventually, if it's meant to be. In the meantime, I'm trying to let me be me...