Old Stories

There's another thing that tonight am bothering me.

I heard and was kind of involved in a long (2 hour) session discussion on religion. Yeah, the old story of answerless endless questions. Well the one who initiated the discussion seemed really happy with whatever conclusion they had.

The story / discussion is about questions like, Should we question God's plans? WHy does God creates brain if He wants us to use our heart to believe? etcetera etcetera and then moving on to some 'rules' that some religions have on their community.

I find it hard to see myself going into a religion where I don't believe ALL of its values, I mean, we can't simply choose a religion and then filters out all the things that we want? Then everyone can have their own way, they can say that rules like going to church don't have to be followed since they don't agree with it.

I don't agree with myself going into a religion when I can't agree with the religion, except maybe if I have to for technical purposes such as marrying someone, or legal purposes. If I declare myself or goes into a church community where I strike out some values that doesn't come into my logic, what's the basic difference with if I don't enter a religion and adopt some values that this church has? The difference that I can figure out is more on the social community side, which doesn't necessarily have to do with God except by doing good deeds and to do good deeds you don't have to do it to your own specific comunnity. And if you feel that you join the community just for the sake of fun / socializing, then what's the point in entering a club where you can't feel at home with, or can't discuss stuff with, or who restricts you with rules?

I may be stupid about these religion stuff, she mentioned that the other two participants were intelligent and said nothing about me-not that I mind, but Thank God I can have my own belief?!